Saturday, August 30, 2014

Day 6...

Being injured has been an extremely humbling experience... Not only have I have to rely on my co-workers to help me out with my normal day to day tasks, but I have had to rely on my Mom and my BFF for help...

Today was especially hard because Saturdays are Mommy and Me days where we run errands and maybe stop for a schmeckin (our word for a little bite to eat). Well what started out as a normal few stops turned into a 12 stop day...

Half way through our day BFF was able to join us and he was such a huge help when my body just couldn't go on after 10 stops, he stepped in and helped Mom with her walker and made sure she didn't buy out Salvation Army. And if she had, he would have helped her load it all in the car...

It's so hard to ask for help...but thank you to all who have helped and especially to Mom and BFF...

Musicsongbird

Monday, August 25, 2014

Day 5...

Some days are great but lately they seem to be getting a little bit harder... I feel like the old stuff is creeping in and I don't want to go back to feeling that way... Now I am not saying this so that people will start giving me all kinds of advice and stuff... I just want people to know where my mind set is in case you see me or talk to me and something just seems off... I am not completely ready to talk about it but I will be soon...

For now... I start physical therapy tomorrow and hopefully this creeping crud will go away...

night
musicsongbird

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Day 4....

Why is it the minute you try and do something good for others, someone has to come along and treat you like what you are doing is wrong... Why can't they just keep their comments to themselves?

So moving forward...

I have been exploring Ancestry.com for the past week or so and I am learning so many incredible things about my families history. The biggest one so far is that My 3rd Cousin 7 times removed on my Mom's side is the 8th President of the United States, Martin Van Buren.  I discovered tonight that my 12th Great Grandfather was actually on the Mayflower and was an original pilgrim that came over from England...

I am just feeling so overwhelmed... There is so much to learn and explore and I feel like I am just scratching the surface... The more I learn about my families past, the more I learn about myself...

Musicsongbird

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Day 3...

So the Doctor's visit went really well today... The doctor is fairly certain that there is not a tear in my cartilage despite what the MRI technician was reporting and so I am officially office modified duty!!!! And I begin physical therapy on Tuesday to help get my mobility back and to help strengthen everything up... The down side is that he has found arthritis... :(

So, I am happy and feeling a lot better. I am so blessed to have such an amazing and caring team at work to help me out and an amazing family that loves me and an incredible Mom to take care of me... ;)

I am sure I will rest well tonight...

Musicsongbird

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Day 2...

Today was another great day of letting others take care of me and it's getting a little easier but I'm not going to lie, it is still very hard... But I know down deep I need to let this happen because in the long run it will make me more aware of others and how I can help them out in return... 

Today was the second day in a row that when I got home, the leg brace came off and the ice packs went on... I think I am pushing myself too much... Happily my Dr. appointment is first thing tomorrow so I know we will have a plan as to how my healing will take place. If it's surgery then the sooner the better... I just want to be well again... I want to be able to get out and walk again... I have all of these new great cast members and I can't even go to the locations to visit because I am on desk duty...

But I have to remember that everything happens for a reason... 

I have to keep telling myself that and sit back and wait for the reason to come...

I'm back,,,
Musicsongbird

Monday, August 18, 2014

Day 1... and counting

It looks like I am back after a bit of a hiatus... Many times over the last few months I have thought about writing but the thoughts just wouldn't come and now I feel as though the circumstances that are going on in my world right now have brought me back...

Last Wednesday, I was walking through the office at work when I felt and heard a pop come from my knee... At that point I fell into the wall, thankfully not onto the floor and that's when people came running to see what happened.

Looking back on this past week since my injury I am so happy I work with the group of people I work with... Everyone has jumped in to help me as I have waited to find out the results of the MRI I had on Thursday...

Well, my journey has taken a detour... I have torn cartilage in my right knee... The doctor said it was probably weakened over time and then she said, "well you were in for a knee injury in 2012." And I thought, was that when I fell outside cast services... or... honestly for the life of me, I couldn't remember going to health services in awhile and as I drove home I couldn't pin point when I had hurt my knee back then... Until I was texting my acupuncturist and it all came pouring out of my head... The last time I had to be put into a wheelchair and transported to Health Services by a fellow cast member, was when I decided steps were over rated and I would try falling instead... (of course this completely tongue and cheek) It was one of those accidents where it hurt bad, but I was stinking embarrassing because everyone and their best friend came pouring into the area where I was on the floor after falling...

But I digress... I have determined that one of the hardest thing in the world for me, is to rely on someone else for help... I don't want to admit I can't do it on my own... But alas, I am sentenced to desk work until my knee is healed and I am cleared to resume normal activity...

Proverbs 6:18 says Pride comes before the fall... however I feel like it has come after mine... ( I know, not the context but it drives a good point). I need to learn to stop being so prideful and learn to ask for help... Especially now... The thing is, you get hurt and the world keeps on turning... Things get crazy in your life and the world keeps turning... You are overwhelmed but the world keeps turning... You ask for help???

You catch what I am throwing... it's ok to ask for help... In the same token, it's even better to offer it before you have to be asked for it... Because for some, Pride comes before the fall...

I'm back,
Musicsongbird