Tuesday, December 31, 2013

2013 a Year to remember...

So many things have happened over this past year, some good and some really good... Some things I wrote about and some I shouted from the roof tops...

Some of my favorites included Celebrating my Mom's 70th Birthday extravaganza... My bestie's baby sister's wedding... Getting my 2nd TA and then getting statused...

Some things I didn't talk about like I think maybe I should, like getting squished for the first time... Last month I decided that now that I am 40, I needed to take a step in honor of my cousin Jana and my Core Sister and get my first ever mammogram... Was I nervous? Yes... Had I heard it was painful? Yes... But I knew what I had to do to make sure my breasts were healthy...

For those of you that have no idea what an exam is like. You put on a dressing gown and other than that gown you are unclothed from the waist up... There is this huge machine you stand in front of and it has two panels. The technician places one of your breasts on the plate and adjusts it so that when she brings the other plate down she will be able to get a good picture of it... Now as you are waiting for these steps to happen you look at the bottom plate and notice that there are lines that are numbered on the plate. I think mine went to like 7... It weird, because I know I have a large chest, but when your boob is laying there on this plate, it truly puts into perspective just how big or small they truly are... Mine were not small... Mine were enormous... Like huge...

After a total number of 9 photos my flattened boobs were ready to be scrapped off of the glass and put back into their protective sling... In all honesty, it wasn't that bad... I can see however, that if i were smaller it would probably really hurt and not be annoying like it was...

Well, my eyes are quickly dropping and I must bid this year an adios... It has been a great year and I look forward to seeing what the new year hold...

Musicsongbird

Thursday, December 12, 2013

which way...

I feel like I am slipping again... Back into the things that I have moved forward from... Some of the past hurts and maybe it isn't that I have slipped back but rather I haven't really worked through them... It's incredible the insight you gain at midnight after watching a Lifetime Christmas Movie...

I know people aren't perfect but sometimes they don't think before they speak and it ends up hurting without intention... Of course depending on your frame of mind the hurt can just graze the surface, where it doesn't need more than a band-aid to make it feel better and then there are times where it can feel like you have a gaping wound...

Do you just act like it never happened and move forward or do you confront the person, which could possibly cause even more pain and hurt...

So you don't say anything and instead of letting it go you let it replay over and over in your mind and that little boo-boo covered with a band-aid gets infected because all you did was cover it and hoped it would go away...

Or you say something and instead of an apology the person turns it back on you and treats it like it's your fault you felt that way and you need to get over it, making that huge wound even larger and deeper, which can make it so much harder to heal...

Then of course there is always the chance that the person never intended to come across that way and they are genuinely sorry and they feel bad that they caused you to feel that way, and with that the wound begins to heal...

So which scenario do you follow...

musicsongbird

Sunday, December 1, 2013

Getting caught up...

My Holiday Bucket List:
Write and mail a letter to Santa...
Have an Advent Calendar (preferably from Germany)
Go and have my picture taken with Santa Claus
String Popcorn (I've never done it)
Go see the Christmas Lights at Fort Wilderness
See the Candle Light Procession
See it Snoap in Celebration
See the Castle Lighting (haven't seen it in a few years)
See the Osbourne Family Christmas Lights
Make handmade Christmas cards
Not skip over Thanksgiving decorating (Yes, there is a holiday between Halloween and Christmas)
Be thankful...

Well, things are rolling along smoothly with my Holiday Bucket list... A few more of the little gems should be coming off by weeks end...

This has been a very different kick off to the Holiday season... Usually by the first we have all of our house decorated but sadly things have been chaotic and I haven't gotten much accomplished on the interior while Mom is just rolling along with the exterior...

I want to decorate, but because we have so many issues with the cats, I just don't know if I want to put the tree up this year...

I guess I have 23 days to decide...

So the picture is of the Advent calendars I purchased in the Germany pavilion...

When I was little my Dad's brother was stationed in Germany and he would send me special gifts, usually beautiful dolls from different places... He would also send me an Advent calendar with the most yummy chocolates... So this year I decided I would start reliving that childhood memory and I got one for Mom and one for me... We will wait and have our chocolate together each day...

I don't know if it's because I am older, but the chocolates seem a whole lot smaller than what they were when I was younger... Yes, they are smaller than a Kiss... But they are full of flavor...

So now it is time to say goodnight...
Musicsongbird