Thursday, November 28, 2013

Thanksgiving 2013

Everyone speaks about being thankful today because it's Thanksgiving, but we need to be giving thanks EVERY day... Not just because of a holiday... It's kind of like Valentine's day... When people make a huge deal out of telling someone you love them...  If you wait to do these things to long you can miss out on letting someone know how much they mean to you...

musicsongbird

Monday, November 25, 2013

Day 695...Year 2

I am thankful for my imagination... It makes me sad that so many adults I know have a hard time using their imagination as adults... Life is so much better seeing the magic in the small things... To hold onto the wonder of things...

With that being said, I don't know if I will be continuing blogging daily... I am not looking for people to say nice things and I'm not looking for a reaction at all... I just feel like some days I am just racking my brain to figure out something to write and I just don't feel like I am benefiting from it... It isn't therapeutic for me if I am not feeling something when I write...

Musicsongbird

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Day 694...Year 2

I am thankful for Hot Cocoa and Pillsbury Orange Cinnamon Rolls... It's the simple things in life that can bring happiness...


Saturday, November 23, 2013

Day 693...Year 2

I am thankful for the Memories I have of my Dad... How sometimes I am busy doing something and a song will play or someone will say something and it brings a smile to my face because it brings Dad close to me again...

Musicsongbird

Friday, November 22, 2013

Day 692...Year 2

I am so thankful for days off... After working 10 days straight, I was off today and thankfully so because the wicked Migraine monster struck again...

Now my body just feels tired...

Musicsongbird

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Day 691...Year 2

I'm thankful for my beautiful fur babies... They are so sweet and loving, even if they have potty issues... They are so smart and they love Mom and I as much as we love them...

Today was our Team Thanksgiving and it was so nice for everyone to come together and share special holiday treats and laughter... The craziest thing we had today was, and I am NOT kidding, possum in coon fat gravy... At first I was leery because all kinds of craziness went through my head, but when I tasted it I couldn't believe how good it was... It just goes to show you how can miss out on things in life when you don't take a chance...

Musicsongbird

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Day 690...Year 2

I am thankful for the quiet of evening... I love being able to sit and pray, or write, or dream... To just listen to the world happen around me... There is such Peace and Freedom when you just sit in the stillness and quiet... When you take the time to let the worries of the day just wash away into the night...

Musicsongbird

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Day 689...Year 2

I am thankful that I have the ability to laugh at myself and not take myself to seriously...

Some people go through life being so serious and being so critical of themselves and others that they miss out on the joys of life...

We only get one go around in this life and it doesn't do any good to be miserable...

Misery comes in so many forms...

Being hypercritical of others, you know the one that is giving unsolicited advice where you claim to be an expert yet you don't follow your own expertise, than you have your own form of misery... You feel the need to self inflate your own importance...

Making excuses and taking the blame on yourself for someone else's indiscretions or mistakes... Punishing yourself for these things that you did not do because you don't feel like you are worth more than that... Guess what... You are...

Don't let someone else steal your happiness...

Musicsongbird

Monday, November 18, 2013

Day 688...Year 2

I am thankful that God puts me in the place where I need to be even if I don't realize I need to be there...

I believe God puts us where He wants us, when He wants us there... They are kind of like divine appointments or I call them God spots... He puts me there when someone needs to talk or needs a shoulder or needs someone to cheer them on or congratulate them...

He knows when someone is going to need someone next to them and he puts me there...

Musicsongbird

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Day 687...Year 2

I am thankful for the Hallmark Channel and cheesy Christmas Romances... They make my heart melt...

Thanksgiving Decorating at Work! DONE!!!

I am trying to keep my co-workers from Decorating as long as I can, or at least until Thanksgiving itself...

This is my safety board I did for work...

When I was younger I thought I wanted to be a teacher... So I guess in reality, I really always wanted to decorate bulletin boards...

Musicsongbird

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Day 686...Year 2

Tonight was rough... I have this horrible habit of wanting to eat all night... It's not that I am hungry... I think it's my way of swallowing my emotions... If I sit and munch I don't have to focus on the emotions I am experiencing... Tonight was no exception having the urge to get up and go grab something, anything out of the fridge... But tonight I didn't...

I focused on something else and now that it is time for bed... I am ready... It's not going to happen over night but the fact is... it will happen... I will succeed...

I am thankful for strong will...

Musicsongbird



Friday, November 15, 2013

Day 685...Year 2

I am thankful for two fantastic Brothers... I love them both very much...

Some days you just need time with a good friend and some yummy food... From laughter to tears and back to uncontrollable laughter a good friend is an amazing thing to have...

Musicsongbird

oh! BFF... I found Cricket ;)

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Day 684...Year 2

I am thankful for my Health Insurance and the life care benefits we are offered at work... Not only is our insurance a good value the Life care benefits that are open to all employees are there to help with all over health... Without them I probably wouldn't feel the way I do today... Mentally healthier and happier...

Now I am not going to say I am 100%, but I am much closer than I have ever been because I have faced the trauma's of my childhood and realized that I am not a victim but a survivor...

With that being said, that doesn't mean I have completed all of my battles, but the biggest one has been faced and called for what it was... NOT MY FAULT!!!

As I continue my journey I am realizing little things a long the way... This past weekend I realized that I am more like my Mom than I have ever admitted and I don't mind... She may not see it but we both have infectious smiles and giggles... When we are hurt emotionally, we hurt deep... We are passionate about the people we care about and the causes that matter the most to us... Everyone sees her as quiet and reclusive but in many ways I see myself this way... Now people that know me are probably saying NO WAY! But I realized something this past weekend... It doesn't take much for me to feel like I am out of place, that I start to doubt I should be somewhere, even if I were invited... But I cover it up by being over the top... I laugh and joke and in some instances dance like a crazy person or make jokes to cover my lack of comfort with the situation...

When you are with a group of friends that are all talking about certain topics and you give an over the top response doesn't mean you are an expert or have even been in that situation, it just means you are believable...

Musicsongbird

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Day 683...Year 2

I am thankful that I have a boss that allows me the time to talk when needed and is a great encourager and supporter...

I did something crazy tonight that I never thought I would do... I volunteered to be on a committee with our Home Owners Association... I have been going to the meeting with Mom for over a year and they are usually a lot of complaining about what isn't going right in the park and that there aren't enough members and so on and so forth... Well tonight when they asked for a committee to help with ballot counting for the upcoming board election I volunteered... I guess I have just gotten to the point where I realized that the only way things are going to change where we live is if I am a part of that change...

I would have to say the average age of our HOA board is 65... The same goes for the membership that come to the meetings... The problem is that the people that are moving into the Park are younger and may not relate to the older members coming and asking them to join HOA... I know they all mean well but I think their approach is way off and hopefully with my taking this step I can help move them in the right direction...

When i first started to write tonight, I was going to say how I have this weird feeling inside right now, but I think what I am feeling is confidence in myself and realizing that my words hold value... Sometime I don't always feel that way but they do... And if I can stand up and do this, I may be able to do other things that I have lacked the self confidence to do...

Most people that know me would be like, No self confidence?? Really?? But most of my outward displays are just displays... When I act crazy it's usually a character or personality...  I'm not talking Sybil crazy personality but just that part of me I turn into when I am nervous or scared... The overly confident part of me...

Musicsongbird

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Day 682...Year 2

I am thankful for the freedom I have found from my past... I am still healing but I am so much happier...

It is time...

Time to make some REAL changes... I am tired of talking and not doing... I have made my Christmas Bucket and it's crazy that I am making a genuine effort to fulfill all of those items on the list, but when it comes to my health... Well, it's just the same old same old...

I want to say something about this though, I live pretty much out loud on Blogger but I think, while I appreciate the concern but this isn't something you can do for me...  If I have questions on how you have fought your battle, I will ask, but please don't try and tell me how to fight my battle...

Fight on...

Musicsongbird

Monday, November 11, 2013

Day 681...Year 2

I am thankful for my home... It may not be a mansion but it is a place that I feel safe in a place I want to be and it is open and inviting to my family and friends...

Weddings are always a great time of celebration and love... It is just so incredible to be special enough to that couple to be asked to be a part of the day... 

My most incredible things I have ever seen at a wedding happened this weekend... I saw the sand ceremony in lieu of a unity candle... There was a very special Mother daughter moment during the ceremony as well and then my most favorite part of the whole celebration was at the conclusion of the reception... The DJ brought the newlyweds to the center of the dance floor and had the remaining guests all circle around them holding hands as the song, "Don't Stop Believing," played... 

These few simple things made it just that much more special...

Musicsongbird 

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Day 680...Year 2

I am thankful for my borrowed family...and tacos ;) Today was so incredible watching two families become one... I am honored and blessed to been given the opportunity to be a part out it... I love how everyone makes Mom and I feel like we are at home... The hugs and love are in abundance from the family we see relatively often and the family we see at these special times together... I am truly blessed... Musicsongbird

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Day 679...Year 2

I am thankful for being reunited with old friends...

This is such a whirlwind weekend... I have to admit it is nice to get to relax while waiting to attend my borrowed sister's wedding tomorrow...To have the opportunity to see new places and share them with my Mom... I am sad that we aren't getting to spend more time with BFF, but he's a part of the wedding party and it is HIS baby sister getting married so it's OK, plus he promised me at least one dance at the reception...

So.... Bucket List update!!!

My Holiday Bucket List:
Write and mail a letter to Santa...
Have an Advent Calendar (preferably from Germany)
Go and have my picture taken with Santa Claus
String Popcorn (I've never done it)
Go see the Christmas Lights at Fort Wilderness
See the Candle Light Procession
See it Snoap in Celebration
See the Castle Lighting (haven't seen it in a few years)
See the Osbourne Family Christmas Lights
Make handmade Christmas cards
Not skip over Thanksgiving decorating (Yes, there is a holiday between Halloween and Christmas)
Be thankful...


Santa and the Mrs. in their off season home...

Musicsongbird

Friday, November 8, 2013

Day 678...Year 2

I am thankful for the special days with my Mom...

I had one of those, I can't believe I live in Florida moments again today... As I gazed out over the gulf and watched the waves roll in, I just felt like everything was right in the world...

Musicsongbird

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Day 677...Year 2

I am thankful for the 24 years I had with my Dad before He went to Heaven...Today Dad would have been turning 74...

In short...

I miss him a lot...
but I know He would be proud of me and my brothers for who we have become...

Musicsongbird

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Day 676...Year 2

I am thankful for the clouds in the sky... Never have a I seen such amazing clouds as I have here in Florida... They truly inspire me and bring peace... My Mom once told me that she heard clouds described as the dust from God's feet... Even the dust from His feet is amazing...






Musicsongbird

(They are all photos I took)

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Day 675...Year 2

I am thankful that I have an infectious laugh...

I love the mornings when I stop at the Security Gate and I am teased by the sweet old guys working the gate... They just make me giggle and laugh and that is an incredible way to begin the day...

I also love the days where laughter is throughout the day... Today there was laughter in our office all afternoon and it just makes it a better more comfortable working environment...

And of course when you spend the evening laughing and spending time with good friends, it's just the icing on the cake...

Musicsongbird

Monday, November 4, 2013

Day 674...Year 2

I am thankful that I have a Mom that can see things in a different way and has mad skills with a hand saw... ;)

Today was so incredibly fun and crazy... I got the opportunity to meet my 6 new Germany Cast Members and 6 of my 7 Norway Cast Members... I told them all from the start that they were my first group since becoming a COT and they were so welcoming and fun... I am really looking forward to seeing how they all grow as cast over the next 12 months... Crazy enough they are with us until my Birthday next year...

Well, it's another early one tomorrow and I am so sleepy...

Sweet dreams,
Musicsongbird

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Day 673...Year 2

I am so thankful I have an amazing job, working for an amazing company....

With that being said, boy did I have a crazy day at the amazing job... I had a total of 6 new cast members from 2 different locations in different stages of their training and their areas are on two different sides of the park... When I took two of the trainees to get costumed and clock out, one of my co-workers watched the others that were still finishing e-learning and sent them over to me at costuming as they were finished... When I finally got down to my one remaining trainee he still had one more online training to complete and it was already 1:30 and I still hadn't eaten... So when another one of my co-workers heard that he took over for me so I had time to eat my lunch before i would need to take my trainee back to costuming... 

Even though I didn't get a ton of work done today, I had to opportunity to get to know 6 wonderful people... I was extremely blessed by one of the gentleman I trained in particular... He is from Haiti and in his country he studied to be a Pastor... He very much wants to learn the English language better so that he can preach in not only his own native tongue, but in French and English... He also told me he would be praying for me and he wants to help me know the bible better... 

It is so sad to know that there are people in the world that get impatient when they come across a person that may not speak the same language as you do but they are making an effort to do so... In my mind, I hope that if the roles were reversed and I was in their country trying to learn and communicate they would be patient with me as well...

 Musicsongbird

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Day 672...Year 2

The countdown to Christmas has officially begun... Hallmark Channel is showing there fantastic Christmas movies all day and night and new Christmas Movies every weekend through Christmas... Some may think they are mushy and predictable but I think I like the fact that there isn't all the sex and bad language; it's just good old happy endings... 

This holiday season I want to really celebrate... Celebrate the time with Friends and Family and give from the heart...

My Holiday Bucket List:
Write and mail a letter to Santa...
Have an Advent Calendar (preferably from Germany)
Go and have my picture taken with Santa Claus
String Popcorn (I've never done it)
Go see the Christmas Lights at Fort Wilderness
See the Candle Light Procession
See it Snoap in Celebration
See the Castle Lighting (haven't seen it in a few years)
See the Osbourne Family Christmas Lights
Make handmade Christmas cards
Not skip over Thanksgiving decorating (Yes, there is a holiday between Halloween and Christmas)
Be thankful...

This is just a small list but there is so much to do and see and I want to make the most of it... So very often things get in the way of enjoying this time of year with our family and friends and I don't want that to happen anymore...

Musicsongbird

For yesterday and Today:
I am so very Thankful for my Mom, my Brothers, BFF, my Sisters-in-love, my nieces and nephews, my borrowed family, all of my extended family and my amazing friends...


Friday, November 1, 2013

Day 671...Year 2

The one thing I regret most about going to the doctor is the weigh in, because I know it will be followed by a lecture... Well, I think good doctors know when the topic of conversation needs to focus on the current issue and not the reacurring one... 

Not only did she not mention the weight she told me that my BP is good and she got down to determining what the cause is for my anemia and migraines... 

Here is to getting healthy from the inside out...

Musicsongbird