Thursday, October 31, 2013

Day 670...Year 2

Happy Halloween everyone!

I had a great time celebrating at work today and seeing the whopping 11 kids that stopped by tonight... But it was fun to see the itty bittys come through all dressed up...

Then of course the traditional late dinner at Steak n' Shake, a Halloween tradition...

Falling asleep at the keyboard...
Musicsongbird

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Day 669...Year 2

Sometimes the hardest thing for us to do is ask for help... Especially when you are used to taking care of yourself or you think that asking for help makes you look weak or like you have failed in some way... I think it takes more courage to ask for help than it does to have to suffer through avoidable problems...

As someone who has had to ask for help many many many times throughout my life, I know how hard it is to swallow my pride and let others know I am struggling but I believe it makes you more aware when others are in need of help and are afraid to ask, that way I can offer my help to help take some of the akwardness away from them...

Anyway, don't be afraid to ask for help...
Musicsongbird

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Day 668...Year 2

I have some amazing friends as I have said many times over... Today we all came together to celebrate the return of our sweet Sister to work after her Battle with cancer...

It was such an incredible hour this morning to get to see her and see the outpouring of love from everyone...

We laughed and joked and she thanked us all and said the jokes are OK, because it makes recovery easier...

Having been through the cancer battle with my dad, the hardest thing to make someone realize is that it's good to laugh once in awhile... Even though cancer is a very serious disease, laughter truly is the best healer... If you are emotionally healthy you will be less stressed and less stress is always a benefit...

As a friend of mine reminds us all daily at work... Every day is a gift...

Musicsongbird

Monday, October 28, 2013

Day 667...Year 2

At the beginning of the month I told about my amazing cousin that lost her battle with cancer...

Tonight I am telling the story of a friend of mine that is a survivor...

Earlier this year my friend was asked if she wanted full time as a core trainer and at one point it was something she definitely wanted but when the position became available she had changed her mind... She felt like she had other things happening in her life and full time didn't fit into them anymore... Then around August she was approached to be one of the Core trainers for the Food and Wine Festival and as honored as she was to be asked she declined...

Then I received a phone call last month from her telling me the news that she had found a lump and it was cancer... From the time our work family was told until she went on leave was maybe two weeks... She made the decision that since cancer was found in one breast that she would have both of them removed... I have never seen a woman more confident in her decision and secure in herself as I did when she told me...

We as humans focus so much on the body that very often we forget there is a person attached... As women we experience this almost daily because we have breasts... How many have you been talking to someone, usually a guy and they are more focused on the area a few inches lower than your face... Or you go to try on clothes and you have to get a size bigger in the top because the girls just don't want to fit right...

About two years ago there were these rubber bracelets that came out that read I <3 Boobies... I myself have a bumper snicker on my car that exclaims Save the Ta Tas and many Breast Cancer Groups use this slogan as well, but you know what I realized through all of this... As women, we are more than our boobs... That might sound funny but should we be more focused on saving the wife, the daughter, the mother, the sister, the grandmother, the friend before we worry about saving the tissue piled on our chest???

I know that having both breasts removed wouldn't be an easy decision but it can be a life saving choice... I know with all of the struggles I have had due to the size of mine throughout my life, I would probably tell the doctor to do the same and really it will leave me about 20-30 pounds lighter... ;)

So, I am happy to report that after her surgery and return trip to the doctor, my friend does not have to go through chemo or radiation, which means I don't have to shave my head (which I would have gladly done)... And the best thing is she is coming back home (to work) tomorrow...

<3 <3 <3
Musicsongbird

Overcomer - By Mandisa

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Day 666...Year 2

I read this great article tonight about the 10 worst habits for people trying to lose weight and I think I should share them, along with my take on the list...

#10 - Stop calling it a diet...
When we call it a diet you get it in your head that when you have something that isn't a part of your "diet" you have been bad and really the first three letters in Diet are DIE... So STOP calling it a Diet...

#9 - Overhauling your eating habits over night...
The fat didn't get there over night and the bad habits didn't start overnight... Think about it this way: imagine a snowball, it's about the size of a baseball... Now in order to make a snowman you have to start rolling it in the snow... As you roll it, it starts to get bigger because more snow is adding itself to your tiny snowball...And before you know it you have the base of your snowman ready to go...

You need to think of your eating habits in this way too... Start off small... If you drink 2% milk switch to 1% or switch to Almond or Soy Milk... Next start finding ways to incorporate healthier snacks into your diet... Instead of a chocolate granola bar, try an apple with a little peanut butter, or single packet of string cheese and a hard boiled egg...

#8 - Giving up certain foods all together...
Being healthy means being able to incorporate all the food you love, just in moderation... If over indulging is your problem than try portion control... If you are a dessert freak, you can't live without it... Instead of a huge bowl of ice cream, try a small container of fruit yogurt... Or if you love warm cake, try this recipe:

3-2-1 Cake
Take 1 Angel Food Cake Mix (dry) and Mix it with 1 regular cake mix (dry- we love lemon) in a gallon sized zip lock bag... Get them good and mixed together... Then take 3 Tbsp of the dry mix and put it into a microwave safe coffee mug... Stir in 2 Tbsp of water and mix until well blended... Put into Microwave for 1 minute and out will come the perfect piece of cake... Mom and I like to add a dollop of icing... Absolutely delicious!

#7 - Only caring about calories...
When you only focus on calories you end up depriving yourself of the food you need to sustain you throughout the day... Calories count but so does nutrition...

#6 - Focusing on the scale...
Many of us jump on the scale daily and then allow it to dictate how we are the rest of the day... Remember, the average body can fluctuate 1-2 pounds daily... It is actually better to weigh yourself less often... Usually a better determiner of size loss is a tape measure... Sometimes we don't see the number on the scale drop as quickly as we see the inches shed... Try measuring yourself once a month and weighing yourself bi-weekly, so you don't get frustrated when the numbers aren't budging...

#5 - Only dieting and not exercising...
Dieting can only do so much... If you aren't getting up and moving nothing will burn... You can only cut so many calories before you are feeling worse than you do when you first started exercising, except exercising usually makes you feel better in the end... ;)

#4 - Trying to eat as little as possible...
We have all tried it and it may work for awhile but the body has a way of thanking us for this behavior... It gives the weight back and sometimes in bigger numbers...Eating less can actually work against you... It can cause long term problems and it makes it much harder to lose weight and keep it off...

#3 - Giving up to easily...
I had a bad day, I ate out with friends and had two desserts, well I better just forget it because I am never going to lose the weight... We have all told ourselves something like that, but we can't let ourselves off the hook that easily... You have to remember that making new habits takes just as long as breaking old ones... On average it takes about 6 weeks to make or break a habit, so don't let a moment of weakness set you back even further...

#2 - Confusing "healthy" with "low calorie"...
Read labels!!! Manufacturers hire advertisers to use buzz words like "healthy", "Fat Free", Gluten-Free to draw our attention and reel us in... There goal is to get we the consumer to buy there product... Just because it's low fat doesn't mean it's low calorie AND healthy for you... Learn to read label on everything... Many ready made meals are actually way higher in fat, cholesterol and sodium then the same meal you can make at home...

#1 - Unrealistic Expectations...
It is great to set goals for ourselves but we need to set up two different ones... The first being long term... An example would be that I would like to lose 100 pounds by October 24, 2014... An attainable goal if you figure that I could lose 1-2 pounds per week over the next 52 weeks...

The second is short term goals... This could be that I want to lose 10 pounds by Thanksgiving... Now when Thanksgiving comes around and I have only lost 2 pounds am I going to get mad at myself and eat an entire pumpkin pie??? No, I just need to set myself another short term goal and review what I could have done better or what habit did I find myself falling back into that I didn't lose the weight??? Or ask myself what happened over the course of the last month that prevented me from attaining my goal???


I think the best thing I can think of when breaking bad habits is turn them into good ones... I am still learning this but we all learning at different paces... ;)

Musicsongbird

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Day 665...Year 2

My birthday weekend has come to an end and I have to say this was a great month... Going to dinner and taking the road trip was nice but the memories made and the great conversations had is what made it so memorable...

As I have said a bunch of times before, I am so excited to see what is to come in this year... What celebrations I will be a part of and adventures I will have...

Here is to another year!
Musicsongbird

Friday, October 25, 2013

Day 664...Year 2

I survived it and lived to tell about it... And you know what? 40 really doesn't feel any different from 39... However, it does make you think about getting older... I know every birthday we get older it's just that milestone birthdays really make you reflect on what you have done and what you still would like to accomplish...

Last week a very special friend called and left me an incredible message really just encouraging me to look beyond the outside appearance and help me to remember that your true beauty shines from within... You can have the most beautiful person in the world and if they have a horrible outlook on life and the world around then and they are never happy than their outer self will begin to match their inner self... I know many people like me and that I have an infectious laugh and smile, as I was told by this friend as well as BFF, and I need to remember that when I start to get down on myself about my current size (28)...

With all of that being said, my #1 item on my to do list for this, my 40th year is to get healthier... To make smarter eating choices and to eat smaller portions... I also want to start exercising but it is going to take perseverance on my own part... I can have Mom or BFF constantly telling me I need to exercise, but I have to be the one to motivate me...

So, now that the celebrating is over it is time to focus on the task at hand and get healthy...

Musicsongbird

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Day 663...Year 2

It's fabulous being 40!

I had a super fun birthday with Mom and BFF... We had a quick breakfast at Wawa and then we hit the road for Sarasota!

There wasn't a total plan in place but I did have some specific food requests for the day... Normally I have things planned out for the entire trip but this time it was lets visit the food places as planned for lunch and dinner but lets just see where the day takes us for the rest...

I think I spend too much time planning every second that I need to learn to let go and go with the flow...

I am working on an updated bucket list so more to come, but for now this old lady is off to dreamland...

Musicsongbird

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Day 662...Year 2

My last Blog...

As a 30 Something... When I wake up in the morning I will be entering the next decade of my life... It's funny when I tell people that I am turning 40, because I get one of two reactions...

1st Reaction:
NO WAY!!!!
You can't be that old.
You're lying... (yes because I would say I am older than I am)

And my favorite:
Don't take offense, but I thought you were in  your late 20's... (Really? You think that telling me I look at least 10 years younger than I am is offensive???)

2nd Reaction:
Oh turning 40 isn't bad. 30 was fine, 40 was fine, but at 50 you are like, I BETTER MAKE A LIST!

So, I have been thinking for the past week for the best memory that I have had in my 30's and there have been so many but as of recent the best most happiest memory I have is my Mom retiring and moving down to live with me... It isn't always easy because life living with your adult child can't be all of the time, but I wouldn't change this time for anything... I believe Mom and I have grown so much here both individually and together... I love you Mom... Thank you Big Brothers for letting me have this life with Mom...

Without Mom and BFF I don't know how I could make it... It is so nice that we are all here for each other through good times and bad, happy and sad, through sickness and health...

BFF, thank you for getting me through some of the hardest times of my 30's and Mom, thank you for giving me life 40 years ago...

I am thrilled to see what this next year will bring and what the next decade will be like...

Here I go...
Musicsongbird

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Day 661...Year 2

I am loving that I am turning 40... I have loved being in my 30's but 40 just seems like a new adventure...

Tonight I went to trivia night with some of my friends and it was a blast... Our team name was Oh No! Guess who's 4-0! And about half way through the contest the trivia guy came over to our table to see who's Birthday it was... When he returned to his table he had everyone in the bar raise their glasses and do a group toast for me, wishing me a happy 40th Birthday! Then a guy from one of the other teams came over and told me I do NOT look 40, he thought I was in my late 20's... I just wanted to give him a big old kiss, but I settled for a picture together...

We didn't come in first, but we did come in 4th but it was out of 8 teams, so I think we did pretty good... :)

To my friends that couldn't make it tonight, I missed you a lot but we will schedule another one so we can all be together... And come in 1st place this time!!!

I have made some incredible friends in the last few years and been reunited with some old ones as well and it is just great... What I love about this group of friends is that you may have just seen them an hour ago at work, but the minute you are back together again there are hugs all around and laughs and giggles and it just feels like everything is right in the world... Like you are home...

Great Friends are the family you get to chose...
Musicsongbird

Monday, October 21, 2013

Day 660...Year 2

I think one of the coolest things I have had the opportunity to do in the past 10 years was step into a recording studio to record my own album... In 1998 I graduated from Webster University with a degree in Music... I have sang in church for years and it's something I love very much... Anyone that knows me well knows how much I love singing, especially music by Sandi Patty...

When I decided to move to Florida, Mom decided that I couldn't move without recording a CD... So I found a recording studio that was reasonably priced and scheduled my session... I didn't quite know what to expect when I walked in but at the same time, it was everything I thought it would be and more...

The engineer took me to one of the studios and had me sit on this incredible leather couch while he prepared my accompaniment CDs that I had brought with me... He also offered me bottled water... Once he was ready he took me into the sound booth and explained how everything worked... He showed me how the headphones worked and that he would speak to me through them and I would answer in the microphone... Pretty simple stuff... He went on to explain that he would start the music and I just needed to sing and he would adjust the levels to get a good mix and then if I felt comfortable we would go ahead and record...

After two separate sessions I created my own album titled, "Behold Him", which includes 12 Contemporary Christian Songs... I sold to people at my church and friends and family...

I would love to have the chance to record again and only time will tell, but I cherish the memory of living out another one of my dreams...

Musicsongbird

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Day 659...Year 2

If you would have told me 10 years ago that my middle Brother and one of my best girlfriends were going to be married to each other, I probably would have laughed in your face... But three years ago, my sister by choice became my sister-in-love...

Back when she was living in another city years ago she asked me if I thought she should move back home to the STL... Of course missing her terribly I thought it would be great and it would also give her piece of mind since she is an only child and she could be closer to her parents... Upon moving back she found a condo and being a fantastic friend I offered to clean the worst rooms in the house...The bathrooms... I also volunteered my brother to help with some carpentry type projects around the place as well... (But I am sure he will say he offered to help)  They struck up a friendship and my sister-in-love will attest the fact that it was JUST a FRIENDSHIP, nothing else and of course I believe her because she is a terrible liar...

As the next few years past her and I got matching tattoos, purple and yellow butterflies, mine on the inside of my right ankle and hers on her shoulder blade... 

Well, when I moved to Florida we still kept in touch and she visited a few times... The last time she came alone was in like January 2009 and BFF, her and I went out for drinks at House of Blues and we were having a good old time... Trying to be funny, BFF taunted me about a possible relationship between my brother and Sister-in-love, which if course she vehemently denied and again I believed her because she is a terrible liar and secret keeper...The rest of the trip was fun and it was exciting because my middle brother was coming two weeks later to finally move all of my stuff down from the STL...

This is when I should have known something was rotten in the state of Denmark... The whole time my brother was visiting he kept commenting on how fun it would be to visit Disney with my now Sister-in-love... Mind you he has two kids, that at the time had never been to WDW and I made a point of questioning that... He would kind of blow it off but the real tell was the fact that he wanted to buy her a gift... Not one for his kids but one for her... (insert eye roll and gagging face)

About a week after he went home I got a phone call from both of them... together... They were officially dating... True to my Sis-in-loves word they weren't together at all when she was visiting but when she got back home, her mind started to change and by the time my brother arrived they were both smitten... In fact, he was so smitten that he drove almost an hour in the opposite direction of Florida when he was driving down my stuff...

Disney is truly a place where dreams come true...
Musicsongbird

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Day 658...Year 2

Probably one of the biggest things to happen to me in the last decade is getting to the root of my emotional history and getting medical assistance for my depression... For so many years there was a certain stigma attached to people that suffered from depression... That it wasn't real, that they weren't finding their true happiness and they just needed to snap out of it...

In my mind I knew if I admitted that I was depressed than they would expect me to go through therapy and they would dope me up until I couldn't feel anything... Well that wasn't true...

BFF helped me realize I needed to talk to my doctor because honestly, I just wasn't happy... At work no one could tell that on the inside I was miserable... I was still the laughing, crazy, magical me that everyone expected... However, when I was home I was sad and depressed... BFF put up with a lot, he was an amazing support... When I finally went on Meds I didn't tell anyone for awhile... Not ever BFF, because I didn't want to admit I had a problem, plus I wanted to see if they truly worked... When I finally started sharing my experience with others I was shocked to hear that I wasn't alone...

With all of the positive feedback I received from Friends I decided it was time to sit down and talk to someone about all of the pain I was carrying inside... After over a year of therapy I was feeling a million times better... Many things were discovered and I learned a lot, things I still use now when having to deal with difficult situations...

However, I know my journey isn't complete... I still have healing to do, but these were giant steps in the right direction to find that healing I need...

Musicsongbird

Friday, October 18, 2013

Day 657...Year 2

Well... Some may look at the glass in my hands and see it as a cool and refreshing glass of water... I look at it for what it is... A $7 glass of Japanese Sake...

This was one of the items on my bucket list... To try Sake...

This was my first and last glass of Sake... Mom and I both partook of the liquid madness... Mom said it best after she tried it and then decided it tastes just like rubbing alcohol...

Other items still on my list is to fly in a helicopter, ride in a hot air balloon, get a professional facial, go Skinny Dipping, have a souffle, get another tattoo and so on...

Something huge I did that was on my list in the past 10 years was living out my Disney dream... Packing up all of my earthly possessions and moving here to Florida to work for the most Magical Company on Earth...

Cheers...
Musicsongbird

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Day 656...Year 2

Well, the verdict is in... I am feeling like ME again!!!!

I received a sweet and meaningful text from my BGF in St. Louis today... It said this:

Happy Last week in your 30s!!!!!!!!

Yes, I am spending my last week as a 30 something and I think I want to reminisce about my life over the past 10 years...

For my 30th Birthday, Mom and I took an amazing trip with my Uncle, my Dad's baby brother, first to our nation's capital... We stayed in Virginia on a military base, which was really cool... While visiting Washington DC we visited all of the landmarks including a trip up into The Washington Monument... We were also able to go into the viewing areas above congress but much like now, nothing was really going on... ;)

We visited Arlington Cemetery and saw the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier... Along with the Memorials at night... Just an amazing trip in itself...

Following DC, we drove to New Jersey and met up with my Aunt and Cousin and spent a few days taking the subway across to NYC and seeing the sites... I love the theater and so we were able to see my first Broadway Show on Broadway!!! "Thoroughly Modern Millie," starring Tony Award winner Sutton Foster... It was so incredible and I hope to return again some day...

On my actual birthday we drove and stopped off in Philadelphia where I was able to see the Liberty Bell and have an authentic Philly Cheese Steak!

Upon returning to St. Louis my two best girl friends took me to the Royal Dump Theater where I danced on stage with other Birthday celebrants wearing my crown and my feather boa...

I would say it was an incredible way to celebrate the end of my 20's and the beginning of my 30's...

And what a decade it turned out to be...

Musicsongbird

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Day 655...Year 2

After a return to work, which I don't know was good for me or not, I came home to take an hour long nap and I am finally starting to feel like me again... :)

Sometimes getting back to your regular day to day activities is just what the doctor ordered...

So thank you all for your thoughts and prayers...

Back to my regularly scheduled life...
Musicsongbird

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Day 654...Year 2

I hate waking up feeling sick... When I went to get up this morning the whole world spun out of control... I thought if I slept a little things would get better, but when it came down to having to get up and get ready, it just wasn't happening... So back to bed and more sleep... The dizziness has gotten better but I am still not sure how I am feeling...

There is nothing worse than not knowing what's going on in your body... If I feel like this tomorrow, it will be time to call the doctor...

prayers please...
Musicsongbird

Monday, October 14, 2013

Day 653...Year 2

To my dear friend that called and left me the voice mail today... Thank you... You said I probably get a bunch of support, but not like the beautiful words you said to me... The moment you said them, tears jumped to my eyes and my heart overflowed...I didn't doubt your words once... I saved your message and have already listened to it like 4 times and it brings me to tears every time and I believe it for myself a little more each time...


If you can't think of any friends that live up to that last statement... Then maybe you haven't found true friends...

Thanks for making me see what you see Friend...

Musicsongbird

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Day 652...Year 2

I saw this and it totally made me laugh, because this is how I feel when I over indulge... Like the fat cat stuck with my head in the cookie box...

I have fallen of the proverbial wagon so many times that they have an assigned seat for me on the edge, so it's more like a jump off than a fall...

I don't even know if I think of it as falling so much as it is giving up...

There is no easy fix... There is no one size fits all, if there was than we would all be as skinny as Heidi and Naomi and all of the other fashionistas of the world... I wish it could be as easy Alice, eat this it will make you smaller, drink this it will make you bigger... My friends and I used to imagine a product called ultra super slim fast, where with one drink you are picking your pants up off the floor because it made you instantly thin...

But we never thought about the fact that we didn't eat a Big Mac one day and go from a size 8 to a 28... It took a lot of Big Macs and Whoppers and cookies and cakes and tacos and candy bars...

Now after all these years of trying, I still don't have the magic pill or drink... I just need some determination and better will power... It's not that I need support, because I have it for the asking, I need to believe in myself, that I am worth the effort... 100 people can tell you, that you are worth it, but it only matters when you believe it for yourself...

do you believe???
Musicsongbird

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Day 651...Year 2

A day of much needed rest... Waking to another migraine is no fun... After running two needed errands it was back to bed for much needed rest...

Listen to your body...
Musicsongbird

Friday, October 11, 2013

Day 650...Year 2

I have an amazing best friend and Mom... My Birthday Month surprises continued this morning... While we were at breakfast at Wawa this morning, I was prompted to look at my My Magic Plus app on my phone to see what the day had planned for me... To my surprise it showed dinner Reservations at Shutters, a restaurant at the Caribbean Beach Resort at Disney...

I wouldn't have ever thought about going the, probably because when BFF and I started taking vacas to WDW we stayed at the Caribbean twice and the menu was different and i wasn't such an adventurous eater like I am now...

But I can officially say after eating there that it was absolutely delicious and I would most definitely go again...

The sweetest part of the entire evening is when BFF explained why he chose it... He said that because we had stayed at the resort a couple of times and we had eaten at the Shutters at the Vero Beach Resort, he wanted us to be able to reminisce about those past trips and try something new together... It's so amazing that he put so much thought into choosing the restaurant...

I am truly blessed...

Musicsongbird

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Day 649...Year 2 #RememberingCory


Tonight the TV show Glee memorialized Finn Hudson, who had been played by actor Cory Montieth, until his death this summer...

I was a beautiful tribute to the character of Finn... The music was incredibly heart wrenching and I'm sure I am not alone when I say that I cried from the moment Mercedes' music began until the screen went to black at the end of the episode...

I admire the writers of Glee for how they handled his passing, by not putting a name to it's cause; despite everyone knowing the actual cause of Cory's death... I know the cast were following their scripts, but I believe their emotions were true...

The one thing I wish they would have played was a montage of Finn's character, perhaps with "Don't Stop Believing" as the background music... That was the song that started it all for the show and I believe it is the one everyone that is a fan remembers the most...

This show allowed us as fans, a true opportunity to mourn Cory's passing and a chance to say goodbye to Finn...

The PSA at the end was very respectful and a wonderful way to reach out to possible viewers that may be suffering just like Cory... I pray that those individuals seek help and finally get freedom from their addictions...

Remembering Cory

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As tonight's episode showed, we all grieve differently, but remembering, honoring and celebrating your loved ones life, helps you to live yours... Don't let someone else's death stop you from living... They wouldn't want that for you...

Musicsongbird

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Day 648...Year 2

Why is it that when a young star does something inappropriate by most people's standards, others make excuses for them like, oh they are growing up or it's kids these days...  Maybe I'm a prude or getting old, but I just don't understand why these 20 somethings think they need to suddenly show their "maturity" by acting like idiots... My favorite is when even their parents "support" them via social networks... If I had acted like some of these "celebri-tots" do when I was their age, my parents would not have jumped to applaud me for being an "individual" or my "talent." 

If you are truly talented, why all the gimmicks? Why do they need to act like a thug, or stripped down to nothing but a smile to prove they are talented? If you are truly something special, let your talent speak for you... That's why I love Contemporary Christian artists... Yes I enjoy the worshipful music but I love the modesty, letting the music and the words of the songs speak to me... I enjoy pop music too... I love singers like Alicia Keys and Adele... They don't have to go to extremes to impress people to listen to their music... 

I was alive before MTV, I know what it was like to hear a song on the radio and then buy the record and later the cassette tape... I didn't need publicity stunts to get me to enjoy a performer... 

It's funny, we were watching The X Factor tonight and there was this girl group that was made up of two 13 year old and a 12 year old, and they performed a Pop song and the performance really reminded me of Destiny's Child... In the end Simon wasn't sure if he was going to keep them and he said he wasn't going to base his decision on the flashy and not very strong performance from tonight, but base it on their first audition, which was of the National Anthem done a Capella.... No extras just a pure vocal performance that received a standing ovation...

Musicsongbird

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Day 647...Year 2

I had a great day meeting 4 new cast for my locations... I was able to pick them up from their Park tour and take them to their locations so they could meet the chef, since they are culinary... It was nice because listening to the chef talk to them at their first meeting I am not only learning more about my new cast member, but I am also learning more about the processes my culinary cast go through each day...

I have watched Hell's Kitchen for many seasons and short of the language that is bleeped, the respect for the Chef is real... My cast were yes Chef and no Chef... It was very much like the military... When you address a senior ranking official it isn't, "Hey Bob, what's up?" "It's good morning, Sir or Good morning  Colonel..."
It's just so very different...

And it's a part of my new home...
Musicsongbird

Do you think people are afraid to bring treats for the Chef???

Monday, October 7, 2013

Day 646...Year 2

There is nothing more beautiful then a blank page... It holds such promise... A blank page can be turned into anything from an amazing work of art, to a literary adventure, prose of a poet, music to a symphony, a child's drawing, a love letter...

A blank page is kind of like your life... When you are born everyone around you thinks of amazing ways to fill your blank pages, but in the end you are the author... What is amazing is that even though the stories can take many avenues, different twists and turns... An incredible cast of characters, some starring and some just fleeting in the background... There can be many chapters, some long and some short, but the story will last a lifetime...

Make your story a best seller...
Musicsongbird

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Day 645...Year 2

October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month

1 in 8 
Number of women that will be diagnosed with Breast Cancer in their lifetime.

Ranks #2 
-Second leading cause of death among women.

2,150 
Men will be diagnosed (though it's rare.)

410 
Men will die...

220,000 
Women diagnosed in the United States with breast cancer each year.

40,000 
Women will die...

It is scary to know that Breast Cancer is the most common cancer among women worldwide...

The one thing that can fight it is attention...

We need to pay attention to our bodies... We need to do self exams, both men and women... We need to have regular doctors visits... Ladies, if you have a family history or are age 40, you need to have a mammogram every year...

We have lost to many Grandmothers, Mothers, Aunts, Sisters and Friends to this horrible disease...

In my family I lost an amazing cousin... What started out as breast cancer spread throughout her body... She stayed positive through it all and fought until the end... Even though we lived thousands of miles apart, she inspired me with her love of photography and travel... She shared her love of Disney with me, and her love for her family...She taught me what true bravery is... She is my hero... And I know she would be so proud of me living my dream... I miss her...

Don't be a statistic... 

Early detection and treatment is the key to getting these numbers down to 0...

Save the Ta Tas!!!
Musicsongbird

If you want to know more please visit The National Breast Cancer Center (all facts were borrowed from this site)




Saturday, October 5, 2013

Day 644...Year 2

Right now, I don't feel like I really have anything to talk about... No words of wisdom, no cute anecdotes... I just feel like there is time to talk and a time for silence...

Tonight must be one of those silent ones...

So I will leave you with this...


Musicsongbird

Friday, October 4, 2013

Day 643...Year 2

Oh what a great day... It's nice to have a day off and hangout with the BFF...

However, I am excited to be going back to work tomorrow because I am loving my new (old) home and I still haven't had the chance to truly get settled in, so I am hoping I can accomplish some of that tomorrow...

To all of my friends I am asking for prayer... The numbness in my hands is back accompanied by pain in my wrist and thumb joint at times... My pin doctor is treating it but I know God is the great physician and He can do anything...

Musicsongbird

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Day 642...Year 2

I love going to Acupuncture but most of the time I sleep so good when I am being pinned that I have trouble going to sleep at night... Thankfully I don't work tomorrow but I do get to spend time with BFF and Mom...

Since October is my Birthday month and this year is a milestone one, BFF decided to do a mini-version of what we did for Mom, for me... Tonight he bought me dinner and it was so very sweet... He also told me that he had a secret that he was keeping from me... After many doubtful moments, he decided to share his secret...

So apparently a week ago when we were at Tybee, he woke up in the middle of the night to me snoring and he recorded me so that I could hear it later... The next morning he said he felt bad and wasn't going to tell me... Well, a week later he finally did... In my head I had mixed emotions about it, but at no time was I mad about it... And as I have had time to process it, I think it is very sweet to do this for me... Now some of you may be saying, "Sweet? For recording you sleeping? Are you joking?" Well, I know I have a sleeping problem and if I heard it I would better understand what is happening at night to me... My sweet Mom has sleep apnea and has to wear a mask when she sleeps... I also know that she sleeps very well with her machine and she doesn't stop breathing in the middle of the night...That is what scares me about the cacophony that pours from my nose at night...

So, if you still have the recording BFF, I would like to hear how bad at is... Because I think you are right and we probably should both get referrals for sleep tests...

Musicsongbird

it's good to be loved...

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Day 641...Year 2


A very sweet friend of mine helped me look into myself with an incredible incite...

She said, "I know you want to loose the weight, and i know it hasn't been an easy journey. You, my dear, need to realize you are worth the time effort and dedication. With all you have done in the past year I've known you I have seen a lot of self growth, but you still have quite a bit of self doubt. Your weight, I feel, is a protective barrier for you. You'll have to loose it the good old fashion way, diet, exercise, and self determination."

This is such a huge truth...For so long I have worried about everyone else and had given up on myself... Well, no more...

I have to matter to me as much as I matter to others...

Musicsongbird

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Day 640...Year 2

I did pretty good today and feel even better tonight...

Weird and a little bit creepy thing happened after work tonight... I was driving to meet up with friends for trivia night and happy hour and bee bopping along to the music on the radio when a Taxi Van pulled up along side of me in traffic... I noticed the guy was looking at me almost like he was trying to get my attention, but I just kept singing along to the music... The traffic started moving again and he pulled in behind me... At the next stop light I noticed he had put his car in park and had jumped out of his van walking towards me... I lowered the window slightly and he pushed his business card at me and said, "call me," and then went back to his van...

At this point I was freaked out and he stopped following me, thankfully or I would have had to keep driving...Maybe he thought I was cute or maybe he thought I could use a cab at some point, but this was just weird...There wasn't anything on his card except his Taxi service information and his name, other than that no explanation... My friends thought it was funny but also very weird... Next time, I won't be rolling the window down, not even an inch...

Just plain weird...
Musicsongbird