Friday, January 18, 2013

Day 384...Year 2

I had a bit of a melancholy moment today... But instead of just letting the depression take over like I normally would, I tried to actually listen to what my body was trying to tell me... In the past I would just allow the sadness to envelope me, but now that I am learning how to listen to my body, it's getting better... I am still a worrier... I worry about what others think of me, I worry if others are happy... You might say I over think things a lot... It is something I struggle with... For so long I have had to put up this mask... This happy all the time, life of the party, laugh with me so you aren't laughing at me mentality that it is hard to stop worrying so much... 

As I was sitting in my car, contemplating all of these things this afternoon, this song came on the radio... It has been a favorite of mine since it was released a while back and I know I have blogged the lyrics before, but it is one of those things that bears repeating... No matter what comes my way though all of this unloading of the emotional and metal baggage I have been carrying around, I know even through the tears and pain, God is truly making me stronger...

Stronger
By: Mandisa

Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you ...

Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger

Love, peace and this will make me stronger...
Musicsongbird