Sunday, September 30, 2012

Day 274 of 365

Today is the birthday of a very important person in my life. She knew I was alive before anyone and felt me grow in her tummy. Mom, Happy Birthday...

You have always taken care of me since I was very small and even now. I am so blessed that you are here in Florida with me. I don't know what I would do without you here.

SO always remember...

"She's still the Same Girl, and we need you so..."

Love, peace and Happy Birthday and I love you!
Musicsongbird (T)

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Day 273 of 365

Tomorrow starts a new chapter in my Disney life. I will officially begin my COT role. I am really looking forward to learning a lot of new things with this adventure. 

When I was an area trainer a little over 4 years ago, I remember thinking, the Core Team's reputation isn't that great and maybe if I become a part of it, I can help change other's opinions of it. Now 4 years later I truly believe the team we have has made a huge difference in the park and we are respected. Now I hope I can be a good addition to our Coordinator Team and make a difference to the Area I will be supporting. I also am looking forward to learning from the wealth of knowledge within our trailer. 

Love, peace and a new chapter...

Friday, September 28, 2012

Day 272 of 365

What an incredible day of imagination and magic... Mom, BFF and I went to Mickey's Not So Scary this evening and had such a fun time. BFF created his own costume and went as a toy soldier. It was incredible. When he came out to the car he looked like he had just stepped out onto the Disney parade route on Christmas. I know he acts like he knows he is talented but sometimes I don't think he truly believes it for himself.

Mom was super cute in her Halloween shirt, vest, socks and bat headband. This year we spiked out her hair and sprayed it orange!!!! We also pimped out her scooter with a Witch Parking only sign. When we got off the Dumbo ride a little girl was reading the sign to Mom and told her how funny it was.

For my costume I was at a loss... I didn't have a clue in the world what I would go as and suddenly true life rang true in my costume. BFF and I went to Goodwill today and I found a black t-shirt for just 75 cents. So when I got home after getting Mom's scooter ready, I began sewing all of my beanie baby cats to the shirt, with Mom's help. Once that was complete I had one cat left which I sewed onto my jeans like it was climbing my leg. I topped off the outfit with some $1 car ears and a quick cat like makeup job.

Even though BFF got the majority of the comments, I received my fair share. The one I heard the most was, you look like my house, which is scary because I had 7 cats sewn onto me, which is how many we have living with us currently. I had one lady tell me they have 16 cats in their home. It can be kinda stinky in our house sometimes with the 4 liter boxes but can you imagine what it's like to have enough liter boxes for 16? That truly is Scary!!!!!!

One of my most favorite moments of the evening is when one of the cowboys in the parade stopped and told BFF how great his costume was and gave him a high 5.

Love, peace and Happy Halloween ;) early...

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Day 271 of 365

What a great day I had with the BFF and Mom. We have had a rough couple of months when it has come to being able to spend time together and now we are going to face a similar challenge with my new role at work; so today was just so refreshing and I am really looking forward to tomorrow as well.

So very many times we spend too much time worrying about what are we going to do next and where do you want to go, I don't know where do you want to go, that when you end up somewhere that wasn't really a part of the original plan the day just gets better.

We had many laughs today, despite the soreness I was feeling from my almost 5K walk this morning, Mom's battle with a cold and BFF's mild sleepiness. Even when we couldn't decide where we were going to go for dinner...We drove through a rain storm, only to do turn arounds after finally deciding to go to Tijuana Flats instead of Taco Bell and than driving right back into the storm as it headed the direction we were traveling.

The craziest moments tonight were seeing all of the lightening strikes.... The wildest one was as we drove down the road an electrical line on the other side of the road from us was struck and a huge blue light burn brightly and then went out. CRAZY!!!!

The funniest moment? Mom finds Puffs on sale at the store 10 for $10 and finds that there are ones with Vicks already in them and so she decides she better try them first and proceeds to open a package and use one! Lol! Needless to say she bought that box but the 9 others were just plain Puffs with lotion.

As I look back on the events of the day, I realize what was so great is that we were so relaxed. It felt comfortable, not forced and that's what happens when we communicate our wants and needs.

Love, peace and communicate...

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Day 270 of 365

iiiiiiiiiii34 (kitten typed this, natural blogger)

I am just having such writers block tonight. I started writing about the kittens and stuff but then even I got bored with it and I think, 270 days isn't bad, I made it through most of the year. I can just quit and that's that...

But I would be letting myself down. I feel like I fall down so often, figuratively...OK and literally, that I can't give up on this. So, since I am a little stumped on the writing tonight, I will share a few sweet pics with you...

So I hope you find them as sweet as I do...and may your dreams be as sweet....

Love, peace and sweet dreams...

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Day 269 of 365

Great day back to work finally. I was telling my leaders that I was so excited to be back and one of them said that I am the only cast member she has ever met that actually wanted to be back at work before my sick day was over or my vacation for that matter. I guess it's true, that when you find something you love, like a great job, you miss it when you are away.

So, I think I finally found the explanation as to why I love this job so much. The person in the world that can out it into words better than most...

Yep, Mr. Rogers...How many Big Kids grew up watching Mr. Rogers Neighborhood and didn't dream about how fun it would be to meet Lady Aberlin or Mr. McFeely, or play with Daniel Stripped Tiger and Prince Tuesday or have a dance with the Purple Panda. Mr. Rogers and his friends taught us how to have fun and valuable lessons on how to treat friends, the one's we have known for years or the ones we have just met. We learned about diversity, that not everyone looks or acts the same but down deep we are all the same.

I think all of these reasons are why I love what I do. Especially because he taught us that through playing we can truly learn. If we aren't having fun, it's much harder to learn. So keep having fun and don't stop learning...

Love, peace and won't you please, won't you please, please won't you be my neighbor...

Monday, September 24, 2012

Day 268 of 365

I am so ready to be well again. This cold is ridiculous. I know I am supposed to rest and believe me I have done a ton of that, it's just like I feel as though I haven't gotten anything done. I know that is the idea. Thank you to my mom for all of the great things you have done to help me feel better. You are the best mom ever.

Being trapped at home doesn't enlighten me to much to write, I am just plain tired. So to my readers I am sorry. Hopefully once I am back to the daily grind I will have much more insightful things to share.

Love, peace and pass the kleenex please...

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Day 267 of 365

Can't believe I am sick. :( It isn't horrible but it's not great either. My nose is stuffy off and on, I have been sleeping a ton and yet I am still tired. Thankfully my throat isn't as sore as it was. I remember when I was a kid and calling out sick was supposedly a fun thing, but how can it be? You either spend the day sleeping or laying on the couch watching mindless TV.

So I am going to attempt to make it to work tomorrow, I hate not being there, because I love it so much; however, at the same time I don't want to pass this on to anyone else if I can help it. Sorry Mom. Also, my body needs time to rest and recover so I will listen to my body and make the decision tomorrow.

To all of you that sent me congrats on my new position at work, thank you. I am so excited and can't wait to begin this new journey.

Love, peace and rest...

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Day 266 of 365

What a day. I am officially able to announce that I received a promotion. I will be a Coordinator of Training at Epcot beginning next week! This is a position I have been on the waiting list for, for over 2 years. I am so excited about the possibilities.

I have a soar throat and so I need to get back to resting so this is short.

Love, peace and I am so excited!

Friday, September 21, 2012

Day 265 of 365

What an incredible day! Mom and I were able to go and spend the day with some old co-workers at Universal. Mom's first visit. It was so fun. So many laughs and stories. New experiences all around. However the end of the day wasn't so smooth.

As soon as Mom walked in the door she went to go check on the kittens and of course two of them are missing from the box. So a wild search followed. I called out for the kittens and in the silence there was a tiny meow, so I called out again and I received the same response. That's when it hit me, the kittens were under my bed. I hit the floor and looked under only to see the under covering of my box spring sagging. Gabriel had found a whole at one time and would go in it and lay down when he was scared. So as it turned out, Sammi found that same whole and put the babies in there to hide them. Well, because my bed is only about six to eight inches off the ground I couldn't reach but half way, so Mom decided she was going to lay on the floor on the other side and see if we could coax the two kittens one way or the other. Finally Mom was able to get both kittens and so I went around to grab them and take them back to their box. I then headed back into my room to help Mom up. We weren't very far along getting Mom up when Mom heard another Meow and low and behold one of the kittens magically reappeared under my bed along with Sammi. She is one fast Mommy; so Mom grabbed that kitten and I went and returned it. This time I closed my room door and then went to helping Mom up off of the floor.

So far everyone is resting comfortably in the box, but we are going to have to do something to fix that whole and soon, so we don't have a repeat.

Love, peace and secret hideaways...

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Day 264 of 365

You know there are some mornings when you wake up and you just want to roll over and go back to sleep and than there are mornings like today when you beat the alarm clock by a good half hour. It's those days that everything just goes right and you say great job God!

The weather report said like 60% chance of rain and so I do something I rarely do, I grabbed my umbrella and carried it into work. I guess it scared away the clouds because it didn't rain until 10:00pm tonight. Great job again!

I made a new friend today, we are very much alike, we have the same warped sense of humor and we both are crazy about our jobs... When people ran into us walking together they would ask, "How long have you known each other?" When we told them, "About 24 hours." They looked at us like we were joking and then walked away. It really is great when you can make a new friend without even trying. It's amazing how God buts the right people in your life at the right time. That's why I know my Boss was brought into our trailer, to help all of us grow and develop. Great job God!

Let's start a new addiction... Let's start talking about the joys in our lives!

Love, peace and find your joy!

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Day 263 of 365

Alright, so I have to first say I have some of the best friends I could ask for. You know that's true when you blog something one night and the next day people are asking if everything is OK. I love my girls, you know who you are...

I want everyone to know that I am fine. Sometimes we struggle with things and we just need to get things out and we have to do it in our way. When we do it's good to know there are others there to lean on, even when  they don't know everything that is going on.

So on to much more fun things... Don't you love when you get to feeling better and you are inspired to create? Tonight I got back to making candy like I used to. Tomorrow I will get to give it to others and hope they enjoy it as much as I enjoyed making it.

Love, peace and share a smile...

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Day 262 of 365

Sometimes we let our mind get a head of us and we start losing faith. So very often we get so caught up in the moment and we allow the negatives to start to overwhelm our thoughts and we start doubting ourselves. That is what I have been struggling with this past few days and it was such a God moment when I logged into FB tonight and saw this great play on the "Keep Calm" signs.

In those times when life starts getting crazy, that is when we should be slowing down, stepping back, allowing ourselves some time to take stock of what is happening. What I forget to do so many times is ask God for His will to be done.

So right now I am going to ask God to go before me in this situation I am struggling with and if it is His will that I begin a new chapter in my life, than He will let me know loud and clear; and until that happens I will continue to Keep Calm.

Love, peace and Have Faith...

Monday, September 17, 2012

Day 261 of 365

T.L.C. - Take it, Leave it, Change it....
I had one of those days today and now that I am sitting here watching the season finale of Perception and am trying to get over the numbness I am feeling.  It's one thing to look in the mirror at yourself but it's another to have someone else hold the mirror up for you. This is definitely a time where I am going to by-pass the T and the L and go directly to the C. I need to change my behavior and vow not to go back to it. It's one thing to be passionate and another to be overzealous. It took this wake up call to remind me that I could delay a dream of mine even longer if I don't Take the recommendation given to me. Leave my personal opinions personal and Change what information I share with others.

Love, peace and learn from your mistakes,

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Day 260 of 365

It has been really interesting watching Sammi over the past few months. When she started coming to our porch to eat she was very skid-dish; she bolt at the slightest sound.  But slowly she began getting used to seeing us and hearing our voices until that fateful day when Mom was sitting on the car port and Sammi came over to her looking for a loving pat.

Not soon after she began coming to the door where our younger cat Gabriel would lay. They would sniff each other through the screen and even rub into it to try and love on each other. (No, Gabe is not the babies daddy) That is when we began to notice that Sammi was getting a belly. I quickly googled information on pregnancy in cats and learned that normal pregnancies are about 8 weeks. Mom and I then agreed that when Sammi got close we would bring her in to have the babies.

Not long after that decision I came home to a third cat in the house. Mom explained that Sammi was in for a "play date." So this became the norm. She would come in for a little bit, some times 10 minutes some times an hour but she would always leave before it got too late. Than one night, she stayed over. From that night on she would go out in the morning for a romp and then return later on for the day and night again.

On August 31st I called my Mom to let her know I was on my way home from a Cast Celebration at Epcot when she informed me that Sammi had begun nesting. When we checked on line it said that this would normally last about 12 hours before the babies would make their appearance and so we ran to do some errands. When Mom and I parted, her for home and me for the pharmacy all I knew is that I wanted to get everything so I could get home and be there for the birth. Not ten minutes had past since I left my Mom when my phone rang. Two of the kitten were born and a third was making an entrance. Oh my goodness!!!! I told her to keep me updated and then continued to drive. Within another 5 minutes she was calling again. There are 4! No 5! I got to the pharmacy and picked up my prescriptions and headed toward home, when it was Mom calling yet again. We have 6, four white and two black. They were finally here.

Just two days later, Sunday, we lost one of the white ones. We named them Lil'Bit and buried him in the garden by the angel statue. The following Saturday, just one day after their one week birthday we woke up to find that the sweet little black one with the white tummy like his mommy had also gone to heaven. We named him Rascal and then he joined his sibling in the garden with the angel.

The kittens are now 17 days old and getting bigger by the day. They love their Mommy very much and they have the sweetest meows.

My story of Sammi reminds me of how we treat people some times. Many times we will see some one that may not look right or dress right or  or maybe you think they have an attitude problem and you make a snap judgement about them without taking the time to get to know them. I know she is a cat but if she hadn't stopped being afraid and stepped out of her comfort zone she may not being sleeping with her kittens in a safe and warm place right now. Because she did she is getting fed and taken care of. Think about it...

Love, peace and be open...

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Day 259 of 365

I saw this quote today and it made me not only think of my own dreams but the dream of someone very close to me. So very often we want our dreams to come true right now, but maybe it isn't the time for it to come true. Maybe God doesn't think we are ready for it because there is something more we need to learn.

So often we get so impatient because we expect our dreams to come true in our time frame that we get frustrated and give up or continue to mope about how this person is succeeding before we are and in the mean time we aren't doing anything to fight for that dream to become a reality.

Just remember, if you give up to soon you will never know what you missed out on.

Love, peace and never stop dreaming...

Friday, September 14, 2012

Day 258 of 365

Such frustration, I come home after a great dinner with friends to find that my oldest cat has once again used MY bed as her liter box and so now I am sleeping on the couch. I think we have figured the problem, so I am going to the pet store tomorrow and getting a third liter box.

Today kicked off the 2012 Food and Wine Training and I had my first Safety class of the Festival! The first class is always the rough one and today that was so true. Apart from the cast at the one table in the back, the rest were at best "lack luster" in their response. But you know what, it is there choice to glean something from the class or not. The information I am presenting to them is important not only to keep us safe at work but also at home.  I can only do so much and the rest is up to them. I just know the rest of the week is going to be even better.

Love, peace and kitty liter....

Sorry so short, but gotta finish writing my Legacy nominations before midnight!

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Day 257 of 365

Today we celebrate the life of my Dad. Fourteen years ago he won the battle with cancer and received the ultimate healing when he entered into God's presence. He no longer hurt from the chemo, his mind was cleared from the confusion of the strokes he suffered from due to the cancer, and he could dance in front of the Father without limping, which was caused by the Polio that ravaged his body as a young child.

Not a day goes by that I don't think of my Dad. I remember when my Dad would wait for me at the team pickup at Six Flags when I would close. He would be listening to Rush Limbaugh or a Cards game on KMOX. He would tell me, "Get in Zelda." That was his nick name for me.  Short for Grizelda. He might take me for a double cheeseburger at Mickey D's if I was hungry and he would make sure to bring a plain one home from Mom.

One night when I was very young, I remember Dad coming home from a late night with his friends, probably bowling, and he woke us all up and he made us breakfast. Mom would have to fly out of town every once in awhile and I remember on instance in particular where Dad made us Corn Hotdish for dinner, one of my favorites still, and then I went with him to the Red Bird Bowling Alley to wait for Mom while he bowled. The only thing I really remember happening is that is I am sitting on the floor of the bowling alley Indian style by a rack of bowling balls next to the bar, when I leaned forward and set the corn Hotdish free. I have never seen my Dad move so fast in my whole life. He ran over, picked me up and ran me into of all places the Men's room so I could continue unloading my tiny tummy. The next thing I remember is the nice waitress that new me by name taking me into the women's bathroom to clean me up and sitting me on the sink and giving me 7-up to calm my tummy. When my Mom arrived to pick me up fresh from her trip she brought me a Long Horned Cattle stuffed animal.

My Dad was my hero.

My Dad didn't verbalize the I love you's very much during his life, but there was never a doubt that he did. We miss you very much Dad,but we are happy to know you are free of pain and we are so glad we will see you again when we meet in Heaven. I love you.


Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Day 256 of 365

I can't believe how tired I am tonight. Praying for a good nights sleep tonight. I am off tomorrow and than Friday begins Food Wine Training so the Cheese is back for Safety in Motion!!!! Wooo Hooo!!! Call me crazy but I am crazy about safety. I know totally weird but true. I love when a cast member that has taken my class comes up later and says how much they remember from my class. I love hearing that areas safety records are better. I love creating things to promote Safety with our cast. I think I am over tired...

Love, peace and Safety!!!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Day 255 of 365

I am learning each day something new about me and my body.

I know that if I drink enough water each day I won't become dehydrated...
I know that if I eat a healthy breakfast in the morning, I won't over do it the rest of the day by overeating...
I know if I get enough sleep at night I won't be tired...
I know that if they are handing out FREE Mickey Premium Bars in the Cast Service Center, I can say no thank you and keep walking by...

Yes, it is true...I turned down ice cream today. Not just any ice cream either, FREE ice cream. But it gets better than that. One of the cast members in the location I was training at today was celebrating her 30th Anniversary with Disney and they had cake. Notice I said They and not we. They had cake and I gave my congratulations to the cast member. 

I decided Sunday morning to go without cakes, cookies, candy, ice cream, soda or any items with added sugar for the next month. I am going to monitor how I am feeling and I am monitoring my weight. I am tired of looking in the mirror and thinking, holy crap how did that happen? Even though I know full well it didn't happen over night. Sometimes it is just one simple change that can get us motivated on the right track...

So who is with me?

Love, peace and say no to sweets!

Monday, September 10, 2012

Day 254 of 365

11 years ago, Tuesday, September 11th, our lives were forever changed when our country was attacked. I was in North Hudson, Wisconsin visiting my family. When I awoke that morning I remember going into the living room where my Aunt and Uncle were sitting watching CNN with the emergency report that a plane had struck the North Tower of the World Trade Center at 8:46am and just 17 minutes later, at 9:03am,  a second plane hit the South Tower. At 9:37am a third plane crashed into the Pentagon killing the 59 passengers on board and 125 military and civilian personnel.

We all sat in awe not quite realizing or understanding what was happening. How could this be, how could America be under attack? Believing this was all over my Mom and I prayed for the families and then went to visit a friend. While my Mom visited I continued to watch the reports on our friends TV.

At 9:57am the South Tower collapsed in just 10 seconds killing approximately 600 employees and first responders. Again we sat speechless. Just 4 minutes later, 10:03am, Flight 93, the fourth of the Hijacked planes crashed into a field in Somerset County, Pennsylvania; a mere 20 minutes from Washington DC, killing the 40 passengers on board.

At 10:15am, the E-ring of the Pentagon collapsed, thankfully no one was killed. However, at 10:28am, 1 hour and 42 minutes after the initial crash, the North Tower of the World Trade Center collapsed.

In total nearly 3000 individuals representing 93 Nations were killed on that day... but I could  not cry...

In October of 2003, just two years after, my Mom and I visited ground zero. I remember there was an eerie quiet in the area, even though it was under construction, rebuilding the future. The subway was just reopened and running. We went into a building around the ground zero area where we could look down into the emptiness that used to contain those mighty towers. Upon looking at what remained the reality hit me and I began to cry. I cried for the loss of the lives...

As we remember this day, from eleven years ago, please remember to pray for the surviving families, pray for our country, pray for our leaders and never forget that we are still America. The Land of the Free and the home of the brave.

Love, peace and God Bless America

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Day 253 of 365

When guests over step boundaries... So weird thing happened today. I was standing outside of Mouse Gear with my co-trainer and our five trainees when a older guest came over to us, put her left arm around me and her right hand on my stomach while her friend took our photo. I was a little confused and when I turned to my cast they asked if I knew the guest. When I said no, they were all as in shock as I was. To day I was taken aback by this is an understatement. The only thing I can think of is that maybe she thought I was a celebrity or someone she knew. I thought the ladies were Indian, but my co thought they were Asian, so I found three of our ICP's that are from China and South Korea to ask if this was customary in their countries. When I explained what happened the girls looked horrified. They all said that the act of putting your arm around a stranger and putting your hand on their stomach is quite rude. So the mystery continues...

Love, peace and drive by photos...

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Day 252 of 365

I saw an amazing episode of Chopped tonight. For those of you that do not know the premise of the show, they bring in 4 chefs to compete against each other in 3 rounds of cooking. In each round they are given 3-4 mystery ingredients and then they have to prepare a dish. The rounds consist of appetizer, entree and than dessert. Well, this particular episode was returning chefs that had been ousted or CHOPPED from the show before. In the second round, as one of the chefs were running to drain their potatoes that had been cooking on the stove, she slipped and fell spilling the boiling water on her legs. Where most people would have laid there in agony, she jumped up and continued cooking; completed her entree and made it into the final round, despite suffering from 2nd degree burns. (EMT's checked her out) She explained she could not give up because she didn't want to let her Nana down.

Also in this competition was a young man professing his new found faith in God and how he just felt so blessed to be competing again. In excerpts throughout the episode he spoke about the grace of God that had  set him free. It amazed me at how open he was and that the network played it. 

It just so happens the two made it into the finale round, desserts. I believe the ingredients to be used were goose eggs and cough drops for sure, I can't remember what the other ones were, but in the time allowed they both created some amazing looking dishes. When presenting their dishes the young man again shared his faith with the judges and how blessed he was to be there. The older woman mentioned she was in this competition again so that she could go and visit her Nana in the old country. Once the two presented their desserts to the judges they showed the two speaking in the kitchen while judges did their thing. The sweet older lady told the young man she really believed that he would be the ultimate winner. With total humility he told her he believed she would. At the final Chopping the older woman was indeed chopped, however, what happened next was unbelievable. 

The young man interrupted the host and said that, while he was very happy to win he never truly  thought he would so he was not expecting to win the $10,000 prize. So, he told them that he wanted to pay for the other chefs ticket to go visit her Nana. The only thing that was spoken was the thank you from the other Chef as she went over to him and hugged him. I was amazed. I mean how many of us if given the opportunity would do the same thing? I am sure that young man has bills to pay and has a wish list like the rest of us, but he did the unthinkable and gave away his prize. 

This reminds me that I need to be more free with sharing my faith. Sometimes we hold onto it so tightly even though we have been commanded to go out and share it. We do it out of fear of rejection or persecution. When in reality, the only thing we should honestly fear is an eternity without Christ.

Love, peace and don't get chopped...

Friday, September 7, 2012

Day 251 of 365

I have realized the older we get, the more regrets we tend to have. I have a fix for this. If we attempt to do something Amazing each day, we will have no regrets. Most us regret the things we have said or the things we have done, but all of those things are what makes us who we are. We have learned more about ourselves and determined, usually, not to go back and repeat that behavior or action we originally regretted.

Merriam-Webster's dictionary defines amazing as: causing great wonder or surprise. Today, my amazing feat was taking a drive down a new road which allowed us to find a new way around Kissimmee!

Maybe my version of doing something amazing is by thinking outside the box, being unconventional and maybe a little crazy in order to bring a smile to someone else's face. 

What ever it is you chose to do each day that is amazing - 
savor it
live in the moment 
feel the magic 
have no regrets...

Love, peace and be amazing...

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Day 250 of 365

I learned something pretty important tonight from my BFF. Leadership isn't always something we strive for. Sometimes it is just given to us. If you are put in such a position it is so hard to keep your cool and not project your negative opinion of a situation onto others. When you see this happening within yourself, take a moment to step out of the situation and realize that nothing can change what has been decided. At this point, all you can do is your best and do what is asked of you, no matter what your personal resentments may be. At some point you will either move on to a new place or the situation will right itself once again in the long run. I am choosing to move forward instead of dwelling on the past.

Thank you BFF for helping me see this.

Love, peace and look forward...

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Day 249 of 365

Today was the day of a million songs for me... Sometime I forget how fun it can be just be silly and enjoy yourself at work. Everything my trainee and I talked tonight prompted songs and quotes from movies and musicals.

My favorite moment of the evening was putting on the new Minnie witch hat, grabbing a shiny red bag, putting on a Mickey mitt and using the ECV return lane as my cat walk to pose and strut myself.

At one point while we were closing one of the shops tonight, I was walking with my trainee to the office when I turn ed to the cast and yelled "You'll stay up, until this dump shines like the top of the Chrysler building!!!" in true Annie fashion. Of course they all just looked back and stared but it was hilarious.

I would start talking with one accent and switch between three or four while carrying on different conversations and the crew from Mouse Gear made it to the money room they were greeted by my own version of "Call me maybe."

I hear people tell me all the time how crazy I am, and you know they are right, but not one of them said with an unhappy face. I act crazy because it brings smiles to others faces and it makes me feel better emotionally. I realized tonight that I don't get crazy with my BFF anymore like we used to.  We used to go out driving and crank up the tunes and sing together or carry on make believe conversations. I think sometimes we get so wrapped up in our adult lives that we forget how to have fun like a kid.

I may not know all the right words to a song, but I am going to sing it out loud like I do...

Love, peace and act like a kid again!

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Day 248 of 365

What a crazy afternoon... A warning to everyone out there, I was getting ready to park at Target this afternoon when a young man approached my car after talking to the person in the car next to where I was going to park. He motioned for me to roll down my window and when I did he asked if I could spare $14, he said his car was parked at the back of the lot and he was trying to buy a tire. I told him I didn't have any money and he quickly walked off across the lot towards another car. I quickly went into Target and let the first employees I ran into know about what happened. They quickly called a third member of their team over and the three of them walked out the front door to see if he was still around. It was very creepy, but the lady behind the credit card booth mentioned that this guy is a regular. He had even stopped her before. When I left I drove the perimeter of the lot and saw no broken down car. It really reminded me of how aware I need to be of my surroundings even in the day light hours. He may have just been a pan handler but it could have been something worse. I am just glad the employees cared enough to really check up on the situation.

So...Mom and I were watching Oprah reruns tonight and the guest she had on had some great advice to live by..."Take your pain and turn it into power." I really feel like this is what I have done by writing this blog. The pain of what I went through as a child and my day to day struggles are being made into power and are not only helping me but could be helping others as well. When you realize that you can be stronger than the pains you have been through, that is when you find power.

Love, peace and find your power...

Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you ...

Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger

Monday, September 3, 2012

Day 247 of 365

Someday's I just don't know what to say. Tonight that is how I am feeling. Most days I actually think about what I am going to write about and today I have nothing. I feel empty. I had a great day working but I just feel empty. No words, just silence. Maybe that's just how we need to be sometime. When the world around us gets to loud, that is the time when we need to find the peace of quiet.

Love, peace and silence...

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Day 246 of 365

My heart is so heavy tonight. One of our sweet kittens has passed away. We called him Lil'Bit, because he was so tiny. I know there is nothing we could have done, but it still hurts my heart. Mom dug a hole in the garden in front of the angel statue and then mom and I covered him up together. Even though we only had him two days, it is hard to say goodbye so soon.

Love, peace and see you in heaven one day my little joy...

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Day 245 of 365

I know too many people who spend their time being mad or thinking about ways to be unhappy in their lives.  They believe everyone is out to get them; or that the whole world is against them. Well, I am here to say... You are absolutely right, at the last meeting of the world we all voted and we decided it was you we want to make miserable... Is that what you want to hear?  You only have to feel that way if you choose to feel that way. 

Now you are whining saying, that everyone is against me, my marriage is awful, my kids are ungrateful, my job is terrible. Guess what? All of that can be fixed, but you would rather sit and take pity on yourself. If your marriage is bad, find help. Are your kids ungrateful? Then let then fend for themselves so they can learn to appreciate things in life, don't just hand them everything they want and when you threaten to punish for misbehaving or acting out, follow through. I don't mean hit them or scream at them; if you tell them they will lose privileges, stick to your guns. They aren't going to be grateful for anything if you give them everything. If you are miserable in your job, find something you are passionate about and do it. If you have hated every boss you have ever had, become your own boss. 

Life is way to short to spend it complaining about the what ifs and the if I had onlys. Find what makes you happy and live it out loud. Don't wait until it's too late. 

Love, peace and live out loud!