Saturday, June 30, 2012
(I know, it's a cheap shot using the picture of the cute kittie...but a girls got to do what a girls got to do)
To all of you I know outside of the web, thank you for your words of encouragement and your friendship and support. And to those that I have written about, thank you for allowing me to use your stories.
For a little girl that was subjected to such horrible experiences and such a bad self image problem, I believe this platform has become one of healing and of proudly displaying my strive to survive my past. I am no longer that scared little girl, I am a strong confident woman.
I don't know what is going to come in the next 6 months, but what I do know is that I am ready to let it happen. The big things and the small, bring them on! Let the next adventures begin...
Love, peace and let the journey continue...
Friday, June 29, 2012
I am trying to learn from my own mistakes and not focusing on the mistakes of others. I can't fix anyone else, I can only fix how I view others and except them and their differences.
I am working on allowing the wounds I have received from loved ones, realizing that holding on to the hurt doesn't make my life any better.
I am learning to set rules for my life and try and follow them, and when I slip up, I don't give up.
Many years ago I learned that you never want to miss the opportunity to tell someone you love them, because you never know when it could be the last time.
And I never want to give up on my dreams, no matter how crazy they may seem to others, they are mine and no one else's.
Love, peace and don't give up...
Thursday, June 28, 2012
The best ailment to a sad spirit is fun with a friend or two; especially if the fun is having your friends watch you get stuck with like 10-15 needles and then you get to see their faces when they get stuck with just one. (true story, made me giggle a little to see their reactions)
The best advice I learned today came at of all places, the Osceola County Clerks Office.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
I know that is why God came up with friends. He knew that we wouldn't always have our family around to help us when we are down or when we need to celebrate, when we need to cry or when we need a good laugh. So he created friends. They are those people that know you almost better than you know yourself. They share you secrets, your jokes, your ups, your downs and everything in between. They are better than family sometimes because you get to chose them and if you are really lucky you get to hang on to them for a lifetime.
Sometimes they come to be from the weirdest situations and other times they just happen. No matter what a true friend is the best thing you can have.
Love, peace and keep your friends close
And having a true friend means you never have to go through things alone...<3
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
I have something to grieve about today and I am sure my friends that work in other parts of the travel industry will agree with me as well. Before any of you start thinking, oh no she is talking about me, I have been talking with my co-workers recently so chill out, but if you think it's something you have done to friends or family maybe you should take some of these suggestions as a wake up call the next time you think of calling or emailing or facebooking.
1. Please don't ask me for discounted or free tickets...I am only given so many each year and I save them for my family and close friends.
- If I haven't seen you in years, plan on paying your own way and for your own stay. (again unless I offer)
2. Family: If you need help with planning your vacation travels don't do it at the last minute. Most of the time we can't help you on such short notice.
3. If you are coming to my destination please don't just assume my home is a bed and breakfast. Accommodations are limited.
4. Please don't assume I will be able to get you other discounts as well...
5. If you are asked to be a guest, be a gracious one, offer to help out during your staff. If I decline your help that is one thing, but to never offer it...you may not be asked back.
6. Many of us play tour guide and vacation planner to guests and customers all day long, please don't expect me to want to do it for you as well. Remember, many times your visit is our vacation too.
Sorry it was such a rant but it's been going through my mind for some time now. Especially after talking with my co's.
Love, peace and respect
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Other than that it has been a great day. I was able to reunite with members of my team that I haven't seen in weeks. It was so fun to get to spend the day with them dodging rain drops, we weren't very successful with that, and getting to see many of our friends in the countries and in the future.
Even though today was rainy and nasty we managed to get some work done and have some great interactions along the way. This could have been a day where the three of us just gave up and said. let's go home, instead we hung in there and ended up having a good time. Sometimes when we wish things away we miss out on the good times we are craving.
Love, peace and don't wish away your day...
Saturday, June 23, 2012
I'm not saying I can't eat these "bad" foods but for now I need to try and avoid them as best as I can and see what happens to my body. I think the worst thing we do to ourselves is not listening to what our body is telling us. I learned a cool thing from a friend. She said when she has dessert or a snack, she will take a bite and savor it, she may even take a second or third bite but when it gets to the point where you aren't "tasting" the food you are putting in your mouth and you are just mindlessly eating it, that's when you need to stop and wait for your body to catch up. If in 20 minutes you are still hungry, you may need to reevaluate what you are consuming.
So, that is what I am planning on doing...
love, peace and stay away from things made of cheese ;-)
Friday, June 22, 2012
Tomorrow is d day... I will be starting a daily walking program and monitor my eating habits. No soda between now and my trip home on July 20th for the 20th High School reunion. I am too exhausted to write anymore but guess what? Tomorrow is a new day of new adventures at the Most Magical Place on Earth, and guess who is training her favorite Safety class all day tomorrow? That's right, ME!
Love, peace and happy early morning weigh in to me!
Thursday, June 21, 2012
It was so nice to walk along the sand and run in and out of the waves taking funny pictures of each other and laughing and joking. As we sat in a beach side bar/restaurant I asked everyone, "Did any of you ever think back when we were in High School, that we would be sitting in some random bar in Florida all together 20 years later?" The only thing I knew back then is that BGF and I were going to be going away to college together in the fall to be suite mates, LTBGF was going across state to another college and BFF was staying in Town to go to a University.
All these years later it is crazy to see how we all came to meet up again for this special night. With one I had lost touch, then regained it, then lost it again, only to regain it thanks to Facebook. One I never really stopped talking to, even when we had our ups and downs. And the other, we had a falling out for a few years but reunited after I moved to Florida.
Even though our lives have all changed from our original plans for ourselves way back then, we are all living our new dreams for ourselves now. We have done a lot of growing up and out. (lol) We have faced fears in our lives and are still here to tell the story about them. It's even easier to face any new fears now because we all have each other once again.
Love, peace and forever friends
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
|My Sophomore year in High School and Sophomore Year at WDW|
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I don't know what inside of me makes me want to constantly change my hair or my room decor or my living room set up. I know some people that never change anything, they are constantly stuck in the same style, the same fit of clothes, the same home layout and decor. To them they fear change. I want to change and look different, I want to look better but than I get on the scale and I look in the mirror and say why. But then that little voice in the back of my mind says, why not. Why not do something to feel better about yourself, why not do something to make you want to look in the mirror and see how great you can look.
My most recent hair change has made me stop and really look at myself. For the first time in a long time, I am looking at myself differently. I know some of my friends have had mixed feelings about it and some just flat out say they don't like it, but you know what? It's not about what they think, it's what matters most to me. If I feel better about the way I look then it's an improvement to MY self image, not theirs. If it gives me that boost of confidence I have so been craving, than its a boost for ME not them.
Love, peace and self confidence!
Monday, June 18, 2012
I need to retrain my body and my mind to get serious about making better choices. What I don't need is a bunch of people telling me, do this and don't do that. I need cheerleaders to give me positive reinforcement, not a bunch of advice. The soon someone tried to give me too much advice I turn my back and start doing the opposite and I end up back where I am now.
I have 32 days until my 20th High School reunion and my first time singing at Church since moving to Florida. I want to be able to take last years shorts with me on my trip and be able to wear them. I want my brothers and sisters in law to see a difference when they see me, to know I am really working at it. My previous health coach and therapist said to make small changes and small goals. So, Friday my vacation will end and the first leg of my journey will begin.
My first goal is to lose 15 pounds before I leave for St. Louis.
How will I do it? I will incorporate more vegetables into my diet. At this point it is seriously lacking them. I will cut down on dairy intake. I already stopped drinking milk almost a year ago, so now it will be cutting down on cheese and ice cream. (my temptresses) I will also begin walking a minimum of 15 minutes per day.
Say your prayers and send your well wishes, I really need the encouragement and I will keep you updated!
Love, Peace and staying away from things fried in grease!
Sunday, June 17, 2012
The most memorable time was when Dad had to take me with him to Bowling and Mom was going to pick me up after she flew back in from a trip to Texas. Dad fed me my favorite dinner, Corn Hotdish and than we headed to Red Bird Bowling Alley. I was sitting in front of the bar on the floor when without warning my tummy rejected my dinner in a neat pile in front of my Indian style legs. The next thing I know I am flying through the air in the arms of my Dad, who is rushing me into the men's room to finish unloading my sour stomach. My Dad didn't think twice when he realized his baby Daughter was sick, he moved quickly to take care of the situation.
The other thing I knew without a doubt about my Dad was that he really truly loved my Mom. He would bring her, and sometimes me, yellow roses; they may have come from the gas station at times, but it was the thought that counted. Mom carried yellow roses in their wedding and they are her favorite and he knew that. He would also surprise her from time to time by bringing her a plain double cheeseburger, one of her favorite treats.
Even though my Dad had a rough time verbalizing his love to us, there was never a doubt in mine or my brothers' minds that we were loved. He supported my brothers and me in what we wanted to do and the activities we participated in. Whether it was sporting events or musical performances he was there. I'm sure if he was still alive he would read my blog, secretly. ;-)
I also believe he would LOVE living in Florida. He would be my like his brother and play golf 6 days a week and would love spending time with Mom in the Florida sun. I know he would be proud of me for living out my Disney dream and for my brothers finding happiness with their amazing wives. He would love his 7 grandsons and granddaughters and his 1 brand new great granddaughter. The only thing that would have disappointed him would have been if we kids weren't happy.
We miss you Dad and we love you so much. Happy Father's Day in Heaven...
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Friday, June 15, 2012
Mom, BFF, BGF and I made the trip this afternoon. It was a rough start due to the fact that we hit traffic as soon as we hit Tampa and an hour and a half trip turned into an almost two and a half hour trip to get to the beach. Thank you Floridiot drivers! (Slowed down to watch an accident on another part of the highway get towed, REALLY?!)
The beach was beautiful, the weather was beautiful, the water was fantastic up until the giant black clouds started getting precariously close. So we changed into our shopping clothes and headed to John's Pass for some shopping and some belly stuffing. BGF tried Oysters on the half shell for the first time, she also tried Conch fritters and chocolate covered bacon. It was a day of first for her.
It's so fun to be with friends and family when they experience something new for the first time. To watch them think through the experience. To see their face change from curiosity, to in trepidation, to discovery and then to the point where they realize why something is so good or exciting. To share in the celebration of this new personal triumph, is like magic.
It's also fun to watch my Mom as she explores looking for just the right stone, or rock or shell and seeing her childlike excitement when she has found one she has deemed as the "good one." I love watching BFF walk along with her and help her find her treasures. To see the happiness in his eyes as she excepts his find. To see them get that shinning excitement in their eyes.
BGF and BFF - my new favorite quote: Friends by accident, family by choice.
Love, peace and forever friends
Thursday, June 14, 2012
I have had a rough week, today was no exception trying to rest my back and yet still needing to make sure everything was ready for their arrival. So, now my back is still a little sore and my car is in the shop until who knows when hopefully tomorrow morning and then I will get her back. But through it all my BFF was there to help me get things done and to calm me down when I was freaked out over my car, and even though he yelled at me (Don't worry he has apologized a million times already, even though you know in the movies when the person is freaking out and they are out of control and they just won't stop freaking out and then someone slaps them and then they stop and realize that is just what they needed? That's kinda what his yelling did for me) where was I?
Oh yeah! He got me through it all today and still met back up with us tonight after the airport for a late night supper to welcome Mom and BGF back! I am so blessed to have some of the best friends. There are some people that think that they need tons and tons of people around them to make them feel happy but I only need small group to make me feel like family.
Love, peace and tell you friends how much they mean to you....
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
The only thing that would have made it better is if my back weren't killing me. It has been hurting since I woke up this morning and ironically enough I had to facilitate the safety classes at work today and teach cast members on how to NOT injure themselves. Lol!
Thankfully both my classes weren't horrible, in fact in both classes I had cast members that enjoyed the class and learned some new things. But on the flip side I had a cast member in class this afternoon that is normally a 5th grade teacher and I wonder if his own class understands what he is teaching because when he answered one of my questions about leverage I asked him if he wanted to elaborate on it and I think he confused all of us. Also, in the middle of class he pointed out about how I wear a wrist brace and that instead of suffering I should call his brother the hand surgeon and he can fix my carpal tunnel in a 10 minute office visit, and when I tried to tell him I am going the non-surgical route of acupuncture he poo pooed it and insisted on giving me his brothers card.
Am I the unsolicited advice receiver this week or what? Didn't I go through a similar experience just two days ago? Enough already!Just because you think your brother or your doctor is wonderful, if I tell you I am trying to do the non-surgical non-expensive route...BUTT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please :)
Love, peace and Happy Birthday BFF!!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Sometimes you just need a change, whether it's a change of clothes, or hair style or just a change of scenery. I am one of those people that needs to switch things up now and then and for me, moving furniture of pictures or nick knacks is therapy. And maybe it's just something we all need once in awhile.
There are times I look at myself in the mirror and think, girl what are you thinking? You are looking rundown and it's time for a change. Don't worry the blogging isn't ending. It's only the beginning. I realized everything I have been doing for myself lately has just been that, things for me...I am changing, growing, learning and appreciating.
Changing: My mind about the person that is looking back at me...
Growing: To like that person I see in the mirror...
Learning: That there is more to me than just the fat girl looking back...
Appreciating: The talents God has given me....
Love, peace and changing meMusicsongbird
Monday, June 11, 2012
Sunday, June 10, 2012
I think there were a few misunderstandings to my end post last night. I am not planning on stopping writing any time soon. I am just saying after the 365 I don't know where this will go, maybe 366 or maybe a new blog? I really never thought I would enjoy writing like this as much as I am . Each morning I check for comments and then I start thinking about what I am going to write. I make the time to write, which I deem "me time."
I worked with an extraordinary young woman today. She is very well spoken, a little shy, but excited to be working for the Mouse. We have a lot of things in common like favorite shows and our love of Disney, but she has a super power. She has Magic ears. Due to hearing loss from birth she wears hearing aids. Unless you see them you would not be able to tell. It's crazy because when she was a baby and the doctors realized she has moderate hearing loss her mother wanted to put her in school for the deaf; the school informed her mother that if she did she would probably never learn to talk. Her bother balked at that and put her in the school anyway and now she has graduated High School and is attending college studying to become a Special Education Teacher. When one of her new leaders asked if she wanted to let the rest of the team know that she is "hearing impaired," she responded by telling them she preferred to tell others she is hard of hearing. "Saying you are hearing impaired makes it sound like I am broken. I'm not broken, I am just hard of hearing."
So very often we look at someone with a disability and we think, wow what a rough road they must have a head of them, but once again we stand corrected. So many people don't think to look to these men and women as the inspiration that they are. We take so many things for granted like the music we hear, the sound of children's laughter, the sound of the wind, what it feels like to run or jump, or the colors in a rainbow after a summer storm. What would the world be like without the music of Beethoven, Andrea Bocelli, Ray Charles, Stevie Wonder; or the acting skills of Linda Bove (Linda the Librarian on Sesame Street), Marlee Maitlin (Academy Award Winner), Chris Burke (Corky on Life Goes On 1989-1993), Lauren Potter (Becky on Glee) I could go on...
We all deserve the same opportunities as everyone else no matter what we look like or how we communicate.
Love, peace and being an inspiration Musicsongbird
Saturday, June 9, 2012
I love training Safety to a class when I have an older cast member in the room. I know that it sounds strange but generally the older cast really sees the importance of the class and they genuinely give you their full attention. I would be lying if I said that the class is fun to attend. The information given is extremely important but the expectations of how we are required to deliver it could put an insomniac to sleep.
I had the honor of having one of our Entertainment Cast in my class today, he has been playing the piano for Disney for well over 15 years. Sometimes it hard to read cast as your teaching, especially when a few are continuously trying to keep themselves awake, or when you ask questions no one answers. At the end of class my entertainer came up to me and thanked me and told me that he really learned some things he didn't know and he invited me to come see him perform and he'd have me come up and lead the Hokey Pokey, ;-) (you have to have been in one of my classes to get why that is so funny.)
It's funny to admit how passionate I can be about safety, when just a year ago I was ready to give up facilitating this class, but sometimes you don't choose what you enjoy doing, sometimes it chooses you.
Love, peace and be careful ;-)
PS: I had a friend tell me this morning that come day 365, I better not stop writing because she won't have anything to read at breakfast anymore. Don't worry, I don't have any plans to stop once this year is over, but we never know where life will take us.
Friday, June 8, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
As I make small changes in my life I am noticing those tiny joy bubbles, where I just feel a little better each time I realize the steps I have taken to better things for myself. I get a joy bubble when I mark something off my to do list, or when I see a comment about my writing. You probably thinking, she has gone off the deep end again, what the heck is a joy bubble? Well, it's something I just put a name to. It's that feeling you get when you feel that happiness just bubble up inside you. It makes your heart smile, so I call it a joy bubble.
Be sure to acknowledge and celebrate your joy bubbles, don't just dismiss them and push them aside. A little self appreciation never hurt, in fact it can help. Acknowledging your accomplishments no matter how big or small will encourage you to the next step forward in your life.
love, peace and let the joy bubbles out!
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
The Daffodil Principle
Several times my daughter had telephoned to say, "Mother, you must come to see the daffodils before they are over." I wanted to go, but it was a two-hour drive from Laguna to Lake Arrowhead "I will come next Tuesday," I promised a little reluctantly on her third call.
Next Tuesday dawned cold and rainy. Still, I had promised, and reluctantly I drove there. When I finally walked into Carolyn's house I was welcomed by the joyful sounds of happy children. I delightedly hugged and greeted my grandchildren.
"Forget the daffodils, Carolyn! The road is invisible in these clouds and fog, and there is nothing in the world except you and these children that I want to see badly enough to drive another inch!"
My daughter smiled calmly and said, "We drive in this all the time, Mother." "Well, you won't get me back on the road until it clears, and then I'm heading for home!" I assured her. "But first we're going to see the daffodils. It's just a few blocks," Carolyn said. "I'll drive. I'm used to this."
"Carolyn," I said sternly, "please turn around." "It's all right, Mother, I promise. You will never forgive yourself if you miss this experience."
After about twenty minutes, we turned onto a small gravel road and I saw a small church. On the far side of the church, I saw a hand lettered sign with an arrow that read, " Daffodil Garden ." We got out of the car, each took a child's hand, and I followed Carolyn down the path. Then, as we turned a corner, I looked up and gasped. Before me lay the most glorious sight.
t looked as though someone had taken a great vat of gold and poured it over the mountain peak and its surrounding slopes. The flowers were planted in majestic, swirling patterns, great ribbons and swaths of deep orange, creamy white, lemon yellow, salmon pink, and saffron and butter yellow. Each different-colored variety was planted in large groups so that it swirled and flowed like its own river with its own unique hue. There were five acres of flowers.
"Who did this?" I asked Carolyn. "Just one woman," Carolyn answered. "She lives on the property. That's her home." Carolyn pointed to a well-kept A-frame house, small and modestly sitting in the midst of all that glory. We walked up to the house.
On the patio, we saw a poster. "Answers to the Questions I Know You Are Asking", was the headline. The first answer was a simple one. "50,000 bulbs," it read. The second answer was, "One at a time, by one woman Two hands, two feet, and one brain." The third answer was, "Began in 1958"
For me, that moment was a life-changing experience. I thought of this woman whom I had never met, who, more than fifty years before, had begun, one bulb at a time, to bring her vision of beauty and joy to an obscure mountaintop. Planting one bulb at a time, year after year, this unknown woman had forever changed the world in which she lived. One day at a time, she had created something of extraordinary magnificence, beauty, and inspiration. The principle her daffodil garden taught is one of the greatest principles of celebration.
That is, learning to move toward our goals and desires one step at a time--often just one baby-step at time--and learning to love the doing, learning to use the accumulation of time. When we multiply tiny pieces of time with small increments of daily effort, we too will find we can accomplish magnificent things. We can change the world ...
"It makes me sad in a way," I admitted to Carolyn. "What might I have accomplished if I had thought of a wonderful goal thirty-five or forty years ago and had worked away at it 'one bulb at a time' through all those years? Just think what I might have been able to achieve!"
My daughter summed up the message of the day in her usual direct way. "Start tomorrow," she said.
She was right. It's so pointless to think of the lost hours of yesterdays. The way to make learning a lesson of celebration instead of a cause for regret is to only ask, "How can I put this to use today?"
Use the Daffodil Principle. Stop waiting.....
Until your car, home or bills are paid off
Until you get a new car or home
Until your kids leave the house
Until you go back to school
Until you finish school
Until you clean the house
Until you organize the garage
Until you clean off your desk
Until you lose 10 lbs.
Until you gain 10 lbs.
Until you get married
Until you get a divorce
Until you have kids
Until the kids go to school
Until you retire
Until you die...
There is no better time than right now to be happy.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So work like you don't need money.
Love like you've never been hurt, and, Dance like no one's watching.
If you want to brighten someone's day, pass this on to someone special. I just did!
Wishing you a beautiful, daffodil day!
Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin. ~anonymous
Don't wait until it's too late. We only get one shot at life, we need to make it a great one!
Love, peace and take time for the daffodils...
Monday, June 4, 2012
As I look back on those days I can see where in some ways I was so right on target and others where I was so far off. I can totally see with clearer vision now how even though my motives were pure, my actions weren't always what Jesus would do. Now I am afraid one of my best friends still views my christian beliefs based on how I was back then, instead of how it is right now. I have always had this personality that draws people to me and I am afraid that in the past I didn't use it the way God intended me to. So, now I want to be passionate about the person God has made me to be, the sometimes Loud, outgoing, singing, writing, shoulder to cry on, friend when you need one, ear to listen, heart to love, person I can be. I want to strive to be passionate in everything I do, no matter how small the task or deed.
Love, peace and stir within me the passion to succeed
Sunday, June 3, 2012
So very often I hear kids and teenagers say such awful things to their parents even after they just spent a ton of money to bring them into Disney and are buying them everything they look at, it just makes me sad. I am going to sound a little old but back in my day we didn't talk back to our parents and scream at them in public because it would get us a whole heap of trouble. Also, when I was old enough to walk, I walked. We have parents of 8 year old and up renting strollers for their children. When the parents balk at the rental price we suggest that a wheelchair would be cheaper and you know what response we get? "I don't want them to be embarrassed by being seen in a wheelchair." WHHHHOOOOOOAAAA!!! Hold the phone mom and dad, you are ok with your 10 year old riding in a stroller but you are embarrassed for them to be in a wheelchair? Why don't you have your lazy kid walk? Walking is healthy. You never heard Laura Ingles (Little House on the Prairie) complain that she needed a stroller to get around. We are raising a nation of lazy kids. There is no more getting up to change the channel, heaven forbid they get up to change their game in their X-box or Wii, and we don't even have to get up to answer the phone anymore thanks to wireless and cell phones. Is Wall*E a true vision of our world to come?
Let's hope not....
Love, Peace and get out and walk!