Showing posts from March, 2012

Day 91 of 365

What an interesting day...who am I kidding it wasn't too out of the ordinary. It was my Monday so i was back to the daily grind. The only problem is that I was exhausted most of the day. Who knew helping friends could be so tiring.  I am even yawning as I type this.

So, I will tell of the kinda Jesus thing that happened tonight. Mom and I went to JoAnn's fabrics to get some...wait for aren't ever going to guess what we were going to get there...ok it was indeed fabric. She wanted to find some black and some dark purple to put on the cross in her flower bed for Good Friday and than for Easter. So she looked for a but and finally found some fabric she liked. We decided that it didn't really matter what it cost because she was going to use it each year. Well when we went to the nice lady Cindy at the cutting table she scanned then and it turned out that they were both on sale for right about $2 a yard. What a blessing.

Now some may say it's silly to see it as…

Day 90 of 365

Well, it's been a wonderfully busy work your butt off kinda day. As I sit here typing I have to stop and stretch my arms and hands and wrists because I am so sore. But it's a good sore, the kind you get from helping family and helping a friend with projects around the house that no one wants to do alone. You know like scrubbing the mold off the side of the house, or raking the billions of leaves that have fell in the yard (which is totally weird because we live in Florida and we really don't have a fall but no one told the trees that), and then sweeping, and more sweeping, and moving bricks and then sweeping even more.

It's nice to know that they appreciate the hard work you have done to help them and that they are willing to reciprocate some day. Like when veggie trays need to be made. ;-)

I know, I know we aren't supposed to do things because we expect that person to help us in return in the future, we do it because that other person has a need and we are willing…

Day 89 of 365

It doesn't happen very often that you get inspired by the Muppets but it happened to me. My BFF, mom and I watched the 2011 Muppets Movie starring Kermit, Piggy, Jason Segel, Amy Adams and the rest of the Muppet gang. If you haven't seen it and you are a Muppet fan, it's definitely a must rent. I don't want to give away the story but there is a sweet new Muppet named Walter that is a huge part of it and there is the great scene with him and Gary (Jason) where Gary is having a heart to heart with Walter and he tells him basically that he needs to start seeing what others see in him and to use your talents that you are hiding deep within. To stop listening to others that are trying to keep you down. My BFF kept poking me with every point Gary made.

I also got a message on FB today from a co-worker, one of my most favorite managers in fact, that was just so encouraging. So very often people want to say things encouraging to others but don't because they don't want…

Day 88 of 365

I am ready to rest. I have been battling for so long and I am just ready to rest. It's not giving up, it's letting the powers that be do their job and not worry about the outcome. I made a promise to myself to try and let go and let God handle it, so I have to live up to that. I did what I needed to and now I will trust that a reasonable outcome will happen.

Sometimes you have to know when to just say enough is enough. It doesn't mean you are giving in or giving up, it just means you are handing it over and let someone else handle it and stress over it for you and just find the trust inside.

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

Love, peace and trust Musicsongbird

Day 87 of 365

I have arrived. Guten Nacht! I am in Germany!!! I spent most of day in the back of this quaint shop in the most North Eastern part of Central South Western Germany. I got to know all of the ladies and gentleman that worked the Wine, Christmas, Stein Karamell Kuchen. They were all dressed in their dirndls and lederhosen. The air smelled so sweet, almost like Werthers Caramel. It was fun to watch them hurry by wrapping gifts the travelers had purchased than scurrying back out to hand them over to happy hands.

lol! So yes I was in Germany but of course it was in Epcot. In the past our team would receive moans and groans when we would come in to get cast caught up on e-learning, but now they see how much fun we have when we come and hangout with them. The leaders appreciate that we take the time to keep everyone on top of their needed additional training and we do it quickly and minimize the amount of time their cast is away from the guests.

They are happy when we arrive and can't wai…

Day 86 of 365

So we received this flyer in the mail with our car insurance renewal through AARP that we can take this 8 hour online driver safety course and get a discount for the next three years. So, Mom and I both started it tonight and completed the first 2 modules and boy is my head swimming.

For those of you that don't know me or I haven't blogged about it, I am a safety champion  at work. I am one of the Safety class facilitators at work, so I know how to work safely at work and at home but now I am learning to be a safer driver as well. So, as I am going through these first two parts all I keep thinking about is how great this would be to train this class to other cast members on what it means to be a safer driver. What is really funny to me is that when they showed a illustration of a person driving all I could think was, they have them driving in their Red Zone! Those of you fellow CM's know what that means, but for those of you that are Guests, it means that the person drivin…

Day 85 of 365

I believe in magic...

Not the Harry Potter wizarding magic, but the magic where you believe without seeing. I am a huge fan of Once Upon a Time and if you watch i you know it's the battle between good and evil. Tonight's episode revolved around the Mad Hatter and he made a very interesting statement. When Emma doubted her belief in magic and the book of fairy tales Henry has that seems to be coming true and he said, "Do you know about the Civil War?" Her response was of course she studied about the civil war in history class in school. He asked from books? And she said yes. He then challenged her about the validity of the stories of the civil war just like she challenged him about the reality of the stories in Henry's book. Then he challenged her in another way saying magic is believing without seeing.

So, this is along stretch but the kind of "magic" I believe in is faith. I have a faith in God to take care of me and those that I love, and it's lik…

Day 84 of 365

Today was garage sale day!!! I know how much we all just love going through all those boxes of things we have put away to save because we may "need them later," but realistically they never see the light of day again. So, last fall mom and I already went through all of my stuff from moving down here, 4 years ago, and had a November garage sale. Let me tell you it was so successful.... I wish you could type sarcasm because that was such a sarcastic remark. In reality I think we made like $5, but of course our neighbor across the street was also having a sale and we spent like a $1.50 there so that cut into our profit; so in the end we boxed everything back up but with the price tags in tact and decided to wait for the sale in the spring to try again.

So, flash forward to this morning, we were out and set up and ready by 8am and let me tell you the crowds started this is only mildly sarcastic because I did make a few substantial sales in the first 30 minutes. Subs…

Day 83 of 365

Trying to get my magic back. My BFF is worried about me, he wants me to be happy and I want to be happy to, but my problem is I am so afraid of going backwards to go forwards. I am hoping the bully situation fixes itself but at the same time I am afraid it will only get worse. I know I am too old to be having so much fear but I know what I want to do next at WDW but the problem is that it's a waiting game.

So back to today. My BFF decided today would be a good day to take me to the Magic capital of the World to see the newest addition to the kingdom. When we pulled into the lot I was informed that because of where we were parking we should expect major crows, this just sunk my already depressed mind. Being a people pleaser though I just forced a smile and parked the car. We took the parking lot tram to the boat and crossed over to this kingdom of magic. I am still feeling the instinct to run, I don't really want to be here.

The moment we step out from beneath the train station…

Day 82 of 365

I am walking on a tight rope today but I have something that has been on my mind. I have friends that look for love on-line and if that works for them that's fine but it is not for me. Reason number is all about vanity. People go immediately upon the looks of the person and not the actual person...So if you aren't photogenic and a little thicker people say nasty things or don't give you a snow balls chance at all. A pretty picture is sometimes just that, anyone can be anyone online. And reason two, how is this safe? You don't know who these people are that you are chatting with or if they say who they are. I want love in my life but not if it means giving up that life.

Now I am not saying it doesn't work but it's just not for me. If this is your way to find love, then good luck and be safe but for me I will just keep looking in my own way.

Remember, God still loves you single or not...

Love, peace and happiness

Day 81 of 365

I am feeling completely alone in this battle. Everyone says they support me but no one is willing to step forward to speak up for me... I want to turn and retreat, run away to somewhere safe, but there is no where to go...,

The walls are closing in and the fire is surrounding me, there is no where to order to escape I must run through the fire, but through the fire could mean death, but on the other side there is life...

I am waiting for a hero, a friend, a loved one to burst through, but no one comes...they have no time for me only themselves and their needs...But what of all the time I helped you, cared for you, loved and rescued you...

Only silence in return...

But as I sit in silence...the tears come...they act like rain taming the flames surrounding me and washing my soul clean...and I feel the warm presence of arms surrounding me and a soft murmur of someone telling me I am loved and not to fear, that I AM here...

No Love? No Peace? Know Love, Know Peace

Day 80 of 365

So very often many are made to feel like they matter to know one. They are told they are stupid, or are liars, or ugly or worse. I don't know how anything could be worse but it can. Many of us think it's ok to be a bully or to talk bad about someone else because in some weird twisted way it makes us feel better. Well, it's not ok. When you put all your energy into being hateful toward someone you never truly know how you have hurt them and you are really doing damage to yourself as well. You show your true colors to others when you talk badly about that person, especially when what you are saying about that person isn't true.

I guess you can tell by what I wrote, I am still struggling with that person that is saying mean and untrue things about me and how I am struggling to forgive. Every time I think about what they are putting me through it makes the fresh new and it makes it that much harder to forgive.

I have some very nice and very supportive friends that are lo…

Day 79 of 365

Sometimes the hardest thing we can do is forgive someone and pray for them...

I am going through that right now. I shared this with a friend of mine today and he said sometimes we are looking for that person to change but sometimes it ends up being us that changes instead.

This is the power of prayer, we just have to be willing to allow God to change us.

Love, peace and prayer

Hey Readers!!!!
I am wondering what you would think about reading about my training adventures? I have been training for over 3 years and have had a lot of crazy, happy and magical experiences, does this interest anyone? Please let me know! Thanks!

Day 78 of 365

So, I received a Facebook message from my former pastor back in St. Louis asking how I was doing and if I get home at all anymore and just letting me know that they miss hearing me sing. And I have been thinking that sometimes I really miss singing too. I sang for every possible holiday, like Memorial Day was "God Bless America" and the 4th of July was "The Star Spangled Banner" (Sandi Patty's Version), Christmas was "O Holy Night", Palm Sunday was "The Via Dolorosa", and then it was always requested that sometime during the Easter Season our Music Minister and I sing "Mary Did you Know." Here is a video of the last time we performed it together before I moved to Florida.

I miss those days of singing at Church but I know I made the right decision in following my dreams to where I am now. As you have read in my blog, life is not always easy but God is getting me through it one step at a time.

Love, peac…

Day 77 of 365

Luck of the Irish to you all!

I wish I had a little bit of that luck today. I ended up in health services with bug bites covering my foot. How I got bites under my sock while working indoors all day I do not know, but it happened to me.

So, now I sit watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire for what seems like the 100th time. I know, I lead such an exciting life.

Now, let's talk about customer service, because if you know me you know great guest service is really important to me. Well when I went to get the bites checked i was greeted with a snarly, "may I help you?" and I explained my problem and then the next thing was, "Cast ID?" in an equally "happy" tone. Then I was told to have a seat and I would be called. Now here is the crazy part, the next two people after me were treated pretty much the same but then the admin in question answered the phone and her whole tone changed to sweet and mushy because it was someone she knew calling and then t…

Day 76 of 365

So I was talking to a friend today and they told me I was spoiled. I guess if someone looks from the outside of my life, they would think I am spoiled but I think I am blessed. My mom doesn't have to do extra for me...

Well, I decided to ask my mom if she thought if I am spoiled, and her response..... I am. :(

So, maybe I am but I am not rotten. Ok well that's up for debate I guess.

So, tomorrow I may be facing the person from yesterday's blog so please pray for me and I will be praying for them. My mom has taught me to rely on God and to trust Him and the best way to get through this is to pray for the ones that persecute you.

Love, peace .... and pray

Day 75 of 365

So, I had a rough start to my day... Why is it that when some people that are misserable in their own lives, see someone that is happy, that they feel they need to tear that person down as well to make themselves feel better, or important?

I had this exact experience today. Its not the first time they have done it either, and they do it to others as well. Well, enough is enough. Where othefs have stood by and let this person do this damage I am standing.firm and cutting them off. They will be held accountable for their actions, this person claims to be a "leader" in their own mind, but a true leader doesnt treat those under them or around them the way this person treats others. And the appology.of, well I am goimg through a rough time at home doesnt mean anything, because you have no right to treat me or anyone else like they are less of a person for any reason.

Its time to stand up to bullys because as silly as it sounds adults can be bigger bullys than kids...

Love, peace.…

Day 74 of 365

Dont you hate when you lose sleep over something that is out of your control and then the next day you try and over come the exhaustian but in the end you end up feeling worse then you did about the situation that kept you up all night?

And its always the littlest thing that will send you over the edge because the sleep you lost is never really regained. Its kind of like little kids that are over tired. You can just say the wrong word or look at them funny but they blow it completely out of proportion. Or if someone asks you to do something for them and you do what they asked but you do it how you perceive that they wanted,it,to be,done but what they wanted wasnt the same thing, then they get upset because you did what you thought they wanted you to do.

Unless we fully explain our request dor help from someone else, we cant always expect the outcome to be exactly what we wanted,them to do...

Love, peace and something about grease...

Day 73 of 365

Today was a weird day. I woke up knowing that I wouldn't be going to work. It wasn't because I was off or deathly ill. I woke up feeling like I needed to just stay home and give myself some time for me. I did wake up with a headache but thankfully it went away in an hour or so.

I know it will cost me my last sick day for the year but what is so great, this is the first time my sick days lasted this long. lol! I was able to get a project started cleaning out my dresser drawers and have a little wii time. Just somethings I take for granted so very often and today I just needed some me time.

Have I said "me time" enough? I think that "me time" is something we all forget about so very often. Most of us are busy worrying about the others around us and lose focus on ourselves. I am not saying to become self centered and self absorbed but to just do something for yourself no and then. Don't just save "me time" for rewarding yourself but "me tim…

Day 72 of 365

I had a great opportunity today to be a part of something magical. When I arrived at work my leaders told me that they needed me to help do something special for a VIP couple that were making their first trip to Walt Disney World. I asked how I would know them and was told their names and that they were an elderly couple. I had to laugh. We are in the beginning week of the Flower and Garden Festival and it's spring break so our guests are either families or elderly couples. Oh, and they had no idea exactly when they would be arriving to our shop.

I thought the easiest way to locate this couple is by making a sign with their name on it. So I stood outside our location proudly displaying my sign with another co-worker of mine as guests passed. It was fun to banter back and forth guessing if the next couple approaching was them. We had many joking claims they were our mystery VIPs, but roughly two hours later they appeared accompanied by our VP's executive assistant. We proudly …

Day 71 of 365

As I spoke about yesterday, I am feeling like the happy pills aren't working as well as they were and I am looking at what is different and then my friend told me she was thinking of changing her eating pattern after school lets out and then I realized I am not being as mindful about what I am eating as I should.

I have gone back to drinking cokes on a pretty regular basis and I'm not eating enough veggies and fruits so my next little step is no soda and more water.

Today was a different kind of day. Part of me feel like we didn't do what we were supposed to do but the other half says we did something that needed to be done. I guess that is just how it is sometimes.

Love, peace and really going to try to stay away from things fried in grease...

Day 70 of 365

So, don't you love when you have one of those days where you aren't sure what you want to say but you know there is something you need to say? Just really struggling with the weight, feel like I'm not doing awful with the food I am eating but can't seem to lose anything. Wondering if maybe the happiness meds aren't making me feel as happy as they should. Just kind of unsure about a lot of things these days.

I know I should just focus on one thing at a time, one simple change I can make at a time. So, now it needs to be decided what that change should be. I guess it works because I am 70 days in to this blog and actually thinking that on day 366 I will just keep going, Lord willing.

I know what I want to talk about...

I am so proud of my mom. She has been shy for my whole life and about 10 years ago or so, we joined a bible study with a group of ladies. We met weekly, for the most part, and we studied God's word and we all learned to open up to each other, but …

Day 69 of 365

So, it has been officially announced, Mickey Dolenz will be filling in Davy's spot at the Epcot Flower and Garden Festival. It truly brought a lump to my throat when I heard today. I don't believe anyone else could fairly fill his spot.

Now, moving on...

I had an interesting talk with my boss today. I was showing him my new magnet bracelet that is to be worn at all times to help alleviate pain by encouraging blood flow through the body. I told him I don't know if it truly works yet but I know I woke up feeling so much better this morning. In the past week I have been having great pain in my legs and feet when I get up and this morning I had none of that. So maybe the bracelet works or maybe it's psycho-somatic, but it feels better. He responded that's how some people feel about the medicine they take. Would we feel the same if we were given a sugar pill instead of our normal dose? As long as we are feeling better don't mess with it.

So, I will keep taking my …

Day 68 of 365

It's a little bit funny yesterday one of my friends from work commented to me about reading this blog and how she wants to comment on things but didn't know if it was ok. Of course it is more than ok. I mean I am primarily writing this blog for myself, when I used to go to the life coach she told me I should journal, and I did a horrible job of keeping up with that, but for some reason I have been able to keep up with what was I eluding to? Oh, that's right! What I was wanting to say is that I also write this in the hope that it will help someone else. So, please comment away. Sometimes I wonder if anyone besides my mom and one of my bff's and a some ladies from sparkpeople even read it.

I know it shouldn't matter but I am one of those people that need that response, I guess that's why I check the stats on my blog like 5 times a day. Just to see how many people are reading it and which days they are reading.

So, what crazy thing happened today? I we…

Day 67 of 365

Today was a great way to end my work week and I learned some important things.

First I learned that I wasn't picked to interview for a new position I had applied for, and my bff responded that our company was crazy and that they don't know what they are missing and then he also said that the right job will come along. And you know, he is right. The best job for me will come along.

The second, you really learn what others think about you when you introduce new people you are with to them. Now, I know what you may be thinking, well people can lie but let me explain it this way.
Example 1: A trainer is introducing their new trainee to a manager. The manager has a brief conversation with the trainee and then tells them welcome to the team.
Example 2: A trainer is introducing their new trainee to a manager. The manager has a brief conversation with the trainee and then tells them what capable hands they are in and that they have one of the best trainers training them.

Can y…

Day 66 of 365

HAve I not been through enough in the past two months? I woke up this morning with a sore throat. I have had 3 sinus infections (Probably all of the same one just never ended), then a virus last week and now a sore throat. I guess it could be worse. Of course it can be worse, so praise the Lord I have a sore throat and thats it. :)

I had an amazing time training today. B reminded me why I am a trainer. Lately I have been feeling so down about my position and wanting to move forward but today brought some of my pixie dust back. :) Even if I have a sore throat. :)

I thinking of writing a book about my training experiences and I have the perfect title, so stay tuned....

Love, peace and my mom has been painting a mess of geese. :)

Day 65 of 365

You know I really should stop waiting until the end of the day to blog, because I think of all of these great things to say earlier on and say, oh I will remember that, and than like hours later I am totally stumped as to what I wanted to write about.

I just spent about 4 hours watching episodes of the Monkees on You tube. It brought back so many happy memories seeing the guys in their younger years. I ended the evening watching the pilot episode where Davy sings Daydream Believer at the end. It made me feel so happy. Sometimes it's the simple things in life that you can find joy in...

Find your simple joy today...


Day 64 of 365

It's funny how people make assumptions when they hear things about others that we haven't met yet. We assume how they will look, how old they may or may not be, etc. Many times when people talk to myself or even my mom, they think we are much younger than we actually are.

Such a thing happened to myself and my co-workers this week. We had some trainees that were being cross trained from another area and because they are seasonal and on of the couples were named Mickey and Minnie, this is the total truth, we assumed they were going to be older, maybe a little slower or at the least not so familiar with our line of business. Then we met them face to face.

Yes these trainees have been with the company over 15 years however they we NOT old, NOT slower and they knew a lot about merchandise since they are Merchandise for Special Events. Needless to say we were slightly embarrassed but the trainees laughed and joked at us all.

So what did I learn from this? Just because someone i…

Day 63 of 365

It's amazing what happens when you let go and you allow yourself to just have fun and be silly. Last night I was asked to behave myself while out with new people, but tonight I was training new cast members and guess what? I wasn't asked to hold back or behave myself. I was free to be me and being me is what I am best at. When we are asked to silence our creativity, we are silencing the true person inside.

I can't tell a new trainee, have fun and entertain our guests, if I am not willing to show them how it's done and for anyone that knows me, the crazier the better. Is everyone going to be as over the top as I am? No, but something I have learned in all of my years at working at many different places, is that where I am now is not work. My job is to have fun and play, maybe ring a register or package up purchases, but I am there to help people forget that reality exists.

"Imagination is the foundation of reality, unless you can imagine these things they will ne…

Day 62 of 365

I am sure I have blogged about this in the past but again I feel inspired or passionate about this particular topic...

First impressions...

Tonight I had an opportunity to hangout and have dinner with my friends co-workers. On the whole it was a great fun time, but have you ever been invited to an unfamiliar place or started a new job and when you walk in there is that group that immediately decides you aren't worth talking to or even acknowledging? Well, there was a group just like that. They all sat away from everyone, granted the seating set up wasn't the best, but they made no effort to come over to the other tables to talk to anyone. This is supposed to be a group get together, not a small intimate are supposed to mingle.

Maybe I am being to sensitive or getting to old for the pettiness of younger adults but this really bothered me. Out of the whole group of like 25? There were like 5 of us that weren't from that area (spouse's, friends, etc) So it is…

Day 61 of 365

Today marked 22 years that I have known my BFF. Each year we try and set aside a day to hangout and,  do something special to acknowledge all the years we have spent together. I know some people think it's silly or weird but we are those things too. :) It's no stranger than celebrating telling people you love them once a year is it? It's a day for us to look back on the past years and see where we have been and where we are going and knowing that someone is there through thick and thin, good and bad even if they are the cause of it. ;)

So today I just want to thank my bff for everything, the good, the bad and the ugly and believe me things have gotten ugly, but the great part of that is we have learned to forgive and we continue to love each other no matter how stupid or irrational we can be sometimes.
So, love you lots bff, and I am so glad we met all of those years ago. When God made you, he must have thought about me...
God made best friends for a reason.... he made them f…